Bitch Tits

That's not really as offensive as it sounds. It's just a quote from "Fight Club". You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else. Donnie Darko and Fight Club are two movies I definately need to own.

Sometimes I wonder what's better- to say the things that will get you in trouble, or to keep yourself safe. I have never taken a risk in my life. Not a real one- I htink you have to take real risks in order to be really happy. I am not really happy. I am content, I am not suicidal, but I am not happy. But there's a horrible catch-22 in taking that risk that will make you happy. If you lose, if your consequences are engative, you won't just lose that chance at happiness, you will probably never live down, as least for a long time, the pain and turmoil of your loss. Some people are okay with that. Some people can bounce back real quickly. I can't. I can't lose. I can't fail. Until I fall, I won't be happy.

I want to be happy.

I want to fall.

But I think I need someone to push me.

yo ho
yo ho
a (standing on the brink of an endless chasm) pirate's life for
~me