Last Nite

1. Where were you at 3:18pm today?
hmm good question. Probably helping Elaine move out... sadface

2. How did you get the idea for your MySpace name?
um Sean called me that when we still hung out, and that was around the last time I cared about updating facebook

3. What song are you listening to right now?
JESSICA BY THE ALLMAN BROTHERS BAND BECAUSE I HAVE MY GUITAR HERO PLAYLIST FOR MY FIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5. Do you click on pop-ups?
I don't even get pop-ups. I miss pop-up video. What ever happened to that?

6. Do you own an iPod?
yes, it contains my life basically

7. What was your first thought this morning?
it's 7:30. My final is at 11:30. why am I awake? Oh, well, I'll go to the rpac

8. Is the person that you have a crush on older or younger?
That's a stupid word, I agree with sarah.

10. Whats your favorite memory from this weekend?
let's see. What did I even do? I don't know, I guess just bonding in general with everyone who I have to leave soon... whaaaaaaaaaa

12. What was the last thing that you had to eat?
pad brownie

13. Who is the last person that you hugged?
ELAINE BECAUSE SHE LEFT ME WHAAAAAAA

15. What do you really dislike at this moment?
my parents because they are my captors.

17. What did you dream last night?
Hahaha I dreamt that Elaine moved out. And it was wierd.

18. What was the last TV show you watched?
show? I have no idea... hell, probably House... but we just watched Beerfest and Eurotrip

19. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
industrial

20. Name 2 people on your Top Friends who are most like you?
I don't even know who's on my top friends. But overall I would say Kristen and Jen

21. Do you always lock your door?
yes compulsively

22. Do you like your boss?
I don't technically have a boss

23. Are you on any medication?
Just mah alive

24. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
there is no side because it's so fucking small

25. What color shirt are you wearing?
brown. it doesn't look great with the new hairs

26. What is your favorite frozen treat?
ICE CREAM W00000000000T

27. How many piercings/tattoos do you have?
Okay no tattoos. But I guess I have five piercings? Or six. I don't know, does an industrial count as one or two, because it's two holes but one piece of jewelery

28. What's your favorite store?
Target :-D

30. Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
Caitlin Anne Fucking Brigid Schriner

32. Do you care what people think about you?
Once in a while but I try really, really hard not to

33. Your last kiss was?
you left off the end of that sentence?

37. Have you ever moshed?
ha yes!

41. What is the thing that you would most like to change about yourself?
my body

42. What words do you say a lot?
"that's what she said"

43. What do you smell like right now?
I don't know. Nothing, really. I mean I showered in the morning, and I haven't gone anywhere so I'm clean, but it was too long ago to still smell like soap

46. What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
ignore it; it'll go away

47. Would you ever sky dive?
absolutely

48. Who was the last person you saw with their shirt off?
um, honestly I don't know

49. Do you enjoy giving hugs?
not that much I guess

50. Have you ever been to Australia?
no, but I wish

51. Do you own a digital camera?
it's broken so no, not really

52. What celebrities do people say you look like?
no one, in fact

53. Who was the last person to say "I love you" to you?
hellz if I know. They hopefully didn't mean it anyway

54. Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but don't?
depends on the situation. Usually no really.

56. What was the last thing you typed?
whatever I just typed for number 54. What a dumb question

57. Most visited website?
facebook, hands down

58. Do you ever feel guilty about eating meat?
I can't feel guilty because I don't eat it

59. If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name be?
I haven't got a clue in fact

60. Do you believe in God?
no way no how

Trippin' On a Hole...

Well, I'm officially done for now. With school, and to some extent, with life. It's a spectacular feeling, in fact. Currently I'm listening to a bunch of Guitar Hero songs that Elaine may or may not have illegally downloaded. It's nice to have no major priorities on the to do list.

So I copied and pasted my facebook statuses for the last few months in order to sum up how the last quarter went:

Stefanie is dead.
June 3
I took a chem final. You'd probably feel the same way if you'd taken it

Stefanie is going to kill elaine for changing her status... but realizes she probably deserves it.
Well, read below I guess. It's not my fault they put them in backwards order.
Stefanie is a poop bomb.

Yeah sweet. Elaine changed my status because I foolishly left my facebook up. But I derserved it, I change hers all the time, such as to, "Elaine is having herself some afternoon delight"
June 1

Stefanie is not a huge fan of math, but does other people's webwork anyway.

Ha. I got bored because I don't like sports, so I did the drunk, stoned kid's 152 webwork instead of watching some stupid back and forth basketball game.

May 29

Stefanie is bored with schoolwork, but it beats the alternative.

May 21

Stefanie is going to be an assassin when she grows up. Or Else.
May 14


Stefanie is busy starting chem lab fires.
May 7


Stefanie is sooooo punk rawk.
May 4


Stefanie is angsty because chemistry makes her so.
April 29


Stefanie is straight out of 1865.
April 27


Stefanie is THE guitar hero.
April 24


Stefanie is not particularly looking forward to Autumn '07.
April 18


Stefanie is going down, down, down to the underground.
April 17


Stefanie is a piece of shit.
April 15


Stefanie is curling into a little tiny ball and dying.
April 14


Stefanie is having herself a weekend.
April 13


Stefanie is bitchin'.
April 10


Stefanie is building a teepee.

It's True, I have a Problem

30 (dumb) Facts

Today-
1. Talk to a boy/girl you like?
I guess
2. Learn anything new?
yeah that I suck at chemistry. Oh, oh wait, that's not new.
3. Talk to an ex?
ha no.
4. Miss someone?
I can't fucking tell.
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Last Person Who-
5. Laid in your bed?
me, you perv
6. Made you cry?
probably Jack Daniels or someone like him.
7. You went to the movies with?
Josh
8. Went to the mall with?
Jen, Dan, and Clarissa
9. Who Made you laugh?
Elaine and her youtube video about the giraffe
10. Said they loved you?
no one I hope.

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General stuff
11. Favorite location?
Chicago
12. What are you most scared of?
commitment, needles
13. Will you ever get married?
it doesn't look likely, and that doesn't particularly bother me
14. Does anyone like you?
Yeah, I'm pretty sure. Aka positive.
15. Do you like being around people?
not always
16. Have you cried recently?
Don't think so
17. Are you lonely right now?
no I don't think so. I'm going to miss having people available all the time though
18. Song stuck in your head?
Jessica- Allman Brothers Band or something like that. It's Guitar Hero's fault. There aren't even words
20. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
I mean I guess technically I did but it never bothered me because I treat people like crap right back
21. What color shirt do you have on now?
red
22. Name three things that you do every day?
walk far
eat
facebook
23. How much cash do you have on you right now?
There's some change in the cup above my head. That's it.
24. Are you bored?
obviously.
25. Whats your favorite show?
HOUSE
26. Who got you to join Myspace?
hmmm I think it was a combination of Katie Polefko and Elizabeth
27. Wish someone was next to you in the morning when you wake up?
This morning? No. Unless the devil of chemistry counts, in which case, yes.
28. What web site do you visit the most?
Definately facebook.
29. Do you have plants in your room?
no I have a flowerpot I need to get flowers for though
30. Who was the last person to hug you?
Clarissa. I wrote everyone good-bye cards and made her sad
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21 SECRETS
1.WHAT IS YOUR DISPLAY NAME ABOUT?
ha I think it's Sean's nickname for me back in high school
2. WHERE WAS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE TAKEN?
in my bedroom in Cleveland
3. WHATS YOUR HEADLINE MEAN?
the real question is; what is my headline? I do not know, so I can't tell you.
4. HONESTLY, IF SOMEONE WERE TO TELL YOU HOW THEY FELT, WOULD YOU LISTEN?
what?
5. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD?
depressed, anxious, nervous, nostalgic
6. WHATS YOUR MOST VALUED POSSESSION?
my iPod and laptop. lame maybe, but I need my music and my pictures.
8. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, AND CHANGE SOMETHING WOULD U?
hahaaha Caitlin's respose to this question was about a short story we had to read freshman year
9. IF YOU MUST BE AN ANIMAL FOR ONE DAY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
GOAT!
10. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE?
I don't really think so, I kind of remember the time I almsot drowned when I was two, but not clearly enough to count
11. WHAT’S THE NAME OF THE SONG THAT’S STUCK IN YOUR head?
Jessica
12.WHO DID YOU COPY AND PASTE THIS FROM?
Caitlin Anne
13. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A LARGE AUDIENCE?
absofuckinglutely not
14. WHAT’S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX OR SAME SEX?
honestly I don't know
15. DO YOU USUALLY ORDER FROM STARBUCKS?
I haven't gotten real starbucks in forever. But from campus grind I usually get a large skim mocha
16. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDY MOVIES OR TV SHOW?
absolutely. Danny Phantom. Fairly OddParents.
18. NAME SOMETHING THAT YOU DID TODAY?
got anally raped by a chem final. anally raped an english final.
19. IS THERE SOMEONE ON YOUR MIND NOW?
um kind of.
20. WHAT HURTS YOU RIGHT NOW?
my tummy because I eated an oreo. And by "an" oreo I mean seven oreos.

Can't You Hear Me Knockin'?

OOOOOOOOokay. I have to leave here. soon. I don't want to. I hate hate hate hate going home. Most of the people I have any desire to see at home are here anyway, those that aren't can freaking visit. I do not want to go home to spend three months under the control of my parents- they aren't even that bad, I just have gotten so acclimated to being independent, and now I have to go back to not being in charge of wher I live and shit. However, there is a small list of good things about going home:
-SIMS 2
-car
-making money (even if the work will be a bitch)
-no schoolwork (by the way, for anyone who cares, chem absofuckinglutely raped me today)
-real foods

okay that's about it. It's not a terrible list, but it's not worth going home. Seriously.

Plus. My brain is so discombobulated. I don't know what to do with any situations in my life. One specifically. I'm not good with... other people. And I feel like by the time I get anywhere with this, I suddenly have to go home.

Whatever. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.

Garden of Serenity

Everyone, I'm sure, has their own personal version of what hell is. I don't really believe in hell, but it's fun... and by fun I mean sadistic a little bit... to imagine what it would be like when you go there. (Please not the "when" not the "if" in that sentence) Fire and brimstone do not really strike fear in me all that much. And physical torture, while annoying, isn't really that bad compared to psychological torture. Thus I have created a survey of what my hell would be like, should it actually exist.

Rather than always being hungry or rolling a rock up a hill, my personal hell would involve lots of chemistry. Lots and lots of it. It would kind of be like never leaving the power of Dr. Robert Tatz. My hell would consist of me essentiall doing lab 26 over... and over... and over again. With different unknowns everytime. My two options with this would be to either a) spend hours and hours and days on it in the boiling hot lab room 240, waiting eternally for the centerfuge, and looking up solubility constants in the big book, but eventually finding the correct compound, only to start all over again or b) half-ass it, get it wrong, and have to get lots of shots. In my arm. I'm not sure if in the wrist or the elbow would be worse. Maybe just one or the other if I only find one cation or anion, but both if I get the whole thing wrong. Anyway, during this lab country music will play. And probably just the same six or seven particularly obnoxious ones, so that they just drive me mad. They will be the ones about tractors and walmart. My lab partner will be Paris Hilton. Rachel Ray will be my TA. The only thing I will have to eat will be flank steak. And my phone will only be capeable of making outgoing calls to that girl in my English class with the annoying voice.

And that is my personal hell. Should you ever want to extract information from me, and getting me rediculously drunk isn't working for some reason, I recommend torturing me in this manner to learn what you want.