Tots
Snow days are one of the most beautiful surprises that can ever grace one’s morning.
My morning sucked.
Do you ever get the feeling that you are doing something horribly, horribly wrong, and that you will get in trouble and suffer for all eternity for your sins? And that you don’t really give a rat’s ass? Because the fun you are having, as bad as it may be, it totally worth it. It makes you dance and sing and act like a fool for all the joy it brings. (even though I suppose I act like that on a regular basis) I’m totally fucking up everything I’ve ever done right now. I do not care. I probably will when it all falls to pieces in, what is likely to be, the near future, but right now, Hanukah Matata.
Yeah, I just pulled out some Lion King. Deal.
Snow snow snow snow snow snow snow snow snow why won’t it snow snow snow snow snow snow. To Ryan and Scott and my other acquaintances at Ignatius, I would just like to say: I hate you. Dearly.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Bitch Tits
That's not really as offensive as it sounds. It's just a quote from "Fight Club". You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else. Donnie Darko and Fight Club are two movies I definately need to own.
Sometimes I wonder what's better- to say the things that will get you in trouble, or to keep yourself safe. I have never taken a risk in my life. Not a real one- I htink you have to take real risks in order to be really happy. I am not really happy. I am content, I am not suicidal, but I am not happy. But there's a horrible catch-22 in taking that risk that will make you happy. If you lose, if your consequences are engative, you won't just lose that chance at happiness, you will probably never live down, as least for a long time, the pain and turmoil of your loss. Some people are okay with that. Some people can bounce back real quickly. I can't. I can't lose. I can't fail. Until I fall, I won't be happy.
I want to be happy.
I want to fall.
But I think I need someone to push me.
yo ho
yo ho
a (standing on the brink of an endless chasm) pirate's life for
~me
That's not really as offensive as it sounds. It's just a quote from "Fight Club". You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else. Donnie Darko and Fight Club are two movies I definately need to own.
Sometimes I wonder what's better- to say the things that will get you in trouble, or to keep yourself safe. I have never taken a risk in my life. Not a real one- I htink you have to take real risks in order to be really happy. I am not really happy. I am content, I am not suicidal, but I am not happy. But there's a horrible catch-22 in taking that risk that will make you happy. If you lose, if your consequences are engative, you won't just lose that chance at happiness, you will probably never live down, as least for a long time, the pain and turmoil of your loss. Some people are okay with that. Some people can bounce back real quickly. I can't. I can't lose. I can't fail. Until I fall, I won't be happy.
I want to be happy.
I want to fall.
But I think I need someone to push me.
yo ho
yo ho
a (standing on the brink of an endless chasm) pirate's life for
~me