Um so basically Jon Stewart is my life and I have been enjoying The Daily Show and The Colbert Report frequently this week.
Currently it is 15 degrees celcius (about 59 ferienheight) outdoors, humid as hell, and it feels like... mid April. Oh, wait. I recall snow last mid-April. Whatever. The point is tomorrow the high is supposed to be 0. Celcius. With a low of -7. So, um. What? Why do the gods of weather hate us?
So the school freaked out on us about myspace earlier this week. Basically because someone... who I swear I don't know...I'm lying... made homepages for Kathy Schrock and Mrs. Perez. So they flipped on us and I decided it would be best to get rid of anything possibly incrimination on myspace.
I'm distracted.
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Monday, February 13, 2006
If you believe...
Stupid school Cracking down on myspace rules. The following are myspace posts that I'm putting in here for posterity's sake because I didn't wnat to lose this stuff but I felt it could be incriinating.
I have a dream... Current mood: confused
A dream I had:
so first of all, the whole scool had to go to this mass thing, but we were in a weird church. The navy was like... in charge of this mass, only it was weird becuase they all had funny hats. I was sitting in a normal seat, but then I got thirsty so I got up for a bottle of water, and when I came back, I had to walk along this precipice ting- almost like the catwalk, but lower to the ground- that they were processing in on. so all the lights are on them, and I'm just doging past them with my bottle of water and candy cane. I'm going against them so it's real fun anywayso there aren't any normal seats left, so I wind up in this weird section that's like all these wodden planks suspended by wires from the ceiling by each of their four corners. I hop on one with swathi and nina and we're j/chillin because no one in this section is serious. then I see on some of the other planks are a bunch of other people, most notably katie blake and ryan tegso as the mass goes on, these navy guys continue. only the thing is, now they all have these funny wigs. then diane vidgak comes, leading a procession of lost army guys to the altar, past our littl reject section. She sees me watching her and she just like mutters as she goes past "yeah I know, this is perfect, isn't it?" with her little parade of army people, who she is leading liek a generalthen tricia comes and she's FREAKING out because she awnts to apply to some school in st. louis, only the app is due that day and she doesn't htink there's time. I think she wanted visgak to recommend her, but that was vague. So she's freaking out, and diane is like... "my god, relax, if it's your top choice school, why did you wait to apply" and trish really had nothing to say to that. so diane made her calm down but she still freaked out, and i remindedh er the st. louis is an hour behjind us and she still had time, but she wouldn't liten to me, she jsut kept runing around, and diane and I gave up on her. so then diane and trish are gone, and I'm swinging around on the wodden slats with nina and various other people. katie is there with ryan, and I'm blatantly drinking my water. we were all talking but I don't know what about. we couldn't really see the preist or anything becasue all the wires from all the planks bocked our view then there's this kid in the navy by me, and he's the only one not wearing a redunckulous hat, and so I start making fun of all the weird wigs to him and then I say, ""oh you must htink I'm mean" but he is like "no, actually, you're the nicest people we've visited all week"then mass ended and I was decorating this room with this girl from my spanish class... and I really wanted to find these flowers to go with this vase, and I finally do and my vase is stolen then I wake up
see. this is what goes on in my head when I cannot control my thoughts. Now you know the truth about me.
Oh, and isn't the music selection today so GANGSTA?
So True, So True Current mood: thirsty
You know you are a catholic school girl when:
1.You mastered the art of cheating and cramming. [[cramming? yes, cheating, not so much]]
2. one word: Retreat [[yup, kairos... me and half the world]]
3. At one time, you liked your uniform [[I still sort of enjoy the idea of not having to pick out clothes in the morning. I'm lazy.]]
4. You got kicks outta being able to wear you PJs to school [[we would if jodi wouldn't come down on us in a fury]]
5. You had a way of making yourself look so innocent when everyone knows that you really aren't. [[oh yeah, everyone does. ]]
6. It cost you 60 bucks to park in the school parking lot [[actually fifty, but whos' counting ]]
7. Everyone hugs each other to greet people [[yeah, either that or viciously attacks them from behind]]
8. At dances, you formed an all-girls circle where no guys could take over [[it seems that usually the guys end up being in that circle.... well at formals, anyway, not the mixers, when we were itty-bitty froshies]]
9. You're blonde, once were, wish you were, or just act like it. [[I was blonde once. And I'd really prefer not to be reminded]]
10. You violated as many dress codes as possible and when you get caught, you pretended that you 'didnt know' [[heh, I haven't buttoned that skirt in years... and I love wearing our soccer jackets]]
11. You have countless obsessions with guys you have never even met or never talked to [[no, but I do know of many guys that I've never talked to, and then I meet them, and I'm like "you're so-and-so's ex" and then it's awkward]]
12. You have NO problem joking around about being a lesbian [[hahaha only with caitlin, cuz we're queer like that. But I prefer the sausage to the taco. Don't worry, I'm quoting a movie and I would never say that in real life]]
13. You spent many a religion class listening to your teacher preach about the Church's take on premarital sex, abortion, and the death penalty [[well we don't get preached to, I had Clark, and generally we jsut discussed... or Gretchen and I defended the liberal views on everything...]]
14. You SERIOUSLY don't know how to shut up [[hahaha stop talking? never!!]]
15. "Remember whens" are your specialty [[yeah lots of bernie's memories with liz and chelso]]16. At least one of your friends names are Jessica, Ashley, Sarah, Katie, Megan, or Lauren [[There are actually not that many jessicas or ashleys, and I know many laurens, but none really at our school. However, Sarah, Katie, and Megan are in abundance. Especially Katies]]
17. your skirts stopped fitting, but were too cheap/lazy to buy new ones, so you just pinned them. [[actually no, I bought new ones that are wayy to big, but I like it]]
18. shaving your legs was optional, even when wearing skirts. actually, putting any effort into your appearance was optional.[[Okay, you know what? I shaveo ne the weekends... but what's the point if I'm going to be at school?]]
19. whenever guys came on campus, the entire school knew their names, cars they were driving, which school they were from and eye color within minutes. [[radar, radar..... not to mention we can smell axe from 100 yards]]
20. The guys just get passed around! [[yeah, it's pretty shady and usualyl the cause of any drama there is]]
21. EveryONE knows about everyone elses business!..even if u've never talked to them!!! [[ohhh yeah, I think I'm a prime example of that...]]
caitlin.
STOP! Pajama time! Current mood: chipper
Currently I am working on a dance recital at Mags (hoorah! I'm finally getting paid to go to school). It's a horrible, horrible drag (I'm getting paid though!) but there are a few good tunes to hear. One includes the timeless classic, Thriller. Ah, it is so fun to be in the back moonwalking for that. Especially when awesome people like Kristen are willing to spend time up there with me. Then there's some awesome hipity-hop songs, like tilt ya head back/ bombs over bahgdad (they are like connected- it's pretty sweet) and make me lose my breath. It's all quite fun to watch Caitlin break out her hip-hop moves at these times. So, while it's mostly pretty boring, at least a) I'm getting paid, and b) I get to have personal dance parties.
In other news, Kristen and I have started a pretty sweet summer project. Yesterday we worked on it for about half an hour, then stole some stuff for further work. I have decided taht Kristen and I are like the worst peole ever, between our stealing and plotting and profit-making schemes. But that's okay. Some people still like us anyway. I think. Am I mislead in this assesment? Oh, dear.
Well I have to go back to Mags in like two hours. Ew.
On the bright side, it looks like there's a trip to Cedar Point in the near future. And I get my hair did on Tuesday and Wednesday I have my senior pictures. Ew shit. I just realised. Next week I have that horrible conditioning camp. Oh god. Chop chop snappy snappy. Oh god.
I am an emotional fuckwit. (love that phrase)
Okay. Well. Bye!
That IS a huge sausage! Current mood: energetic
That title would be in reference to the large, fake, sausage we saw at Flower Child today. It was pretty strange. Who just has a fake sausage decorating their ktichen or whatever? And a huge one at that. The sexual connotation in that is completely rediculus.
Ah, and in lighter (?) news, I AM FREE FROM THE HELL WE CALL SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!! Ack, I'm so excited. So happy and excited, come to think of it, that I am procrastinating on my summer darkness, because I don't want to destroy my good mood. Maybe I'll jsut wait until I'm in a super black mood, then do what it is I've got to do, and then I will be in like SUPER DUPER black mood, and will come out of it all at once. Things might be better that way.
Ah, I'm excited for the summer, and all the fun, late crazy nights you can have during it! Raise your hand if you are excited, as well!
Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I want to go to the beach.
I GET MY PHONE BACK TOMORROW! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Leave me summer lovin'! Or ideas of plans, and if anyone ever wants to do something, I'm usually around, because I'm a tool. With no friends. Well, few friends. Well, few single friends that aren't too busy with their boy/girlfriends, anyway.
AH! Smiles!!!!!!!!!!!
It's Not What You Say... Current mood: drained
Today was adecent fay until I went to track and was reminded that I have no talent for anything in this world, and that there is nothing for which I shine out for. I'm pretty medicore at everything. Now, admittedly, I'd rather admit to being medicore and get on with life than try to glorify myself into somthing I'm not, but it is none-the-less saddening to know that I stand out in no way from amongst the people I know. There's nothing to make me special- I haven't got something (or someone, I suppose) to completely dedicate myself to, as do many people. I just don't know what to do with myself.One of the scariest things ever happened today. I started laughing. For no reason really. I just started, and then I couldn't stop. There was literally NO reason to be cracking up like I was, but I just kept going, even when I told myself to stop. When I was done, I almost curled into a ball and cried. That's all I wanted to do right theno nce the laughing was over- to cry a thousand times more than I laughed. But I sucked it up and pretended to do my Ab workout.So if anyone sees me twitching for the remainder of the week, I recommend... backing away slowly?Yeah. That's probably your best option.
I'm so far gone now Current mood: pissed off
I am no longer on the brink of tears. I was, for a bit, but now, anger and revenge have wroght themselves upon me, and thus I am out for vengance. My day was a downhill fall, but I want to try to adhere to my twelve step program. Thus, I will find the things wrong with my life, and find the good in them.
1) got back like five million (or two) f's in precalc, and am terribly pissed at self--- but on the bright side, I didn't actually lose that many points, and since I have been keeping up with the work that's going on right now, I may be able to compensate a bit for that.
2) am in pain because I missed practice for a week, then went back yesterday and did wayyy too much lifting.---however, the pain will subside soon enough, and I will be stronger for it
3) did really shitty at practice---thinking about it, it's really because of the pain. I just have to keep working.
4) had to go to wake for colleen, which wouldn't have been bad at all if not for presance of the most annoying, disgusting creature on this earth. possibly second to jeanne---realize that no one can really stand htis creature, besides possibly the bitch queen who shall remain anonymous, and thus come out winner. Also didn't wear mother's heinous old suit, like creature, but rather cute blazer from Gap.
5) went to malley's, where I learned I have to work a bunch of days, including ST PATRICKS DAY from 1-7.---realised that I will be forcing each and every one of my friends to come visit me, so they can fucking shove it
6) at malley's, learned that jeanne is trying to get me fired---came to enlightenment that a) I do more work than anyone else at malley's, and if they fire me, not only will they regret it, but I will hove tonnes more free time and b) I have a plan to get jeanne fired.
7) thought about it, and realised I am a vengeful, hateful person, ergo, the reason for why I tread through life, desolate and alone.---nooope, not really coming up with anything for that one.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
shit, tremours.
The Sun Sets With the Truth on its Back Current mood: confused
eck. Myspace is in cali time, a time I don't run on very well. This means it is actually what? 2:41 am? Geez, I am a loser.Things I learned today:
You can drive on Superior, Detroit, Clifton, and Lake all by driving in a straight line
It is not a good idea to put your wet arm on an antique desk you made your mom let you have in your room
Sometimes you don't want to be on the inside of a joke
Buffalo contain smallpox
Three Gallons is enough when your life is threatened
I look very pasty in my picture
How to get around downtown Cleveland
Junior dance isn't worth the headache (just like sophomore dance wasn't)
that is all.go to my bloge, btw
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
The World Wide Webster Current mood: geeky
The dictionary is awesome. It teaches you how to talk. Talking pisses people off. Pissing people off makes you feel fuzzy inside.I do not know jack shit about government. Thank you.Guess what life is like without internet? Bad. So very bad.Tomorrow I shall go to New York and sap stupid New Yorkians into thinking I am British.British people kick ass.I am not british, so I suck.
Monday, May 09, 2005
Three Doors Down Current mood: crushed
Well, today was busy, semi-exciting, and excruciatingly exhausting. First of all, AP bio. Yeah, that was four hours of bubble-filling fun! Nothing says "I'm having a blast" like filling out ovals until your eyes bleed and your hand whithers away. After this I eventually proceeded to swimming with steg, after making her some baked apples, which were pretty good, but I was too lazy to cook them the whole way, so they were a little crunchy. (as if anyone cares about my culinary pursuits) After this I returned home and layed out once again (did I mention I did that yesterday and that now my appearance rivals that of a tomato?) and read "Teen Idol" which was excellent, sort of predicatable, as meg cabot books have now become, but there were elements of the plot that kept me.... twistedly amused, shall we say. I guess. That sounds different than how I actually meant it. But whatever.Then I ended up babysitting for this girl in Caitlin Anne's stead. She was all nice and such. It involved wayyyyyyy too much physical activity, none of which I am supposed to do, owing to the fact that I am broken. I ran around a block, full speed, chasing four girls on bikes. In my precious adidas sandals (which never fail me) Yeah.... I'm wayyyy out of shape. But it was cool. Then we invented obstacle courses for each other. Also okay, but more physcial activity than I really needed. So all in all I had a workout today, mentally and physically. I'm pooped, as some might say.You know what sucks? Irony, THATS WHAT SUCKS. Like when you by chance get seated next to a friend of yours at the SATs, but then, noooo she's not taking the SAT Is and they put her in the wrong room, and they send someone to replace her, and it's someone you know! But oh, wait, it's one of the two people in the world you loathe. Sweet Stef. You suck.There are a lot of otherthings in this world that make me unhappy, as well. :-(Well, I just thought I'd drop another myspace line. Leavecomments, bitches.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
May Day Current mood: mellow
Today we all dressed in white gowns and danced about and twirled ribbons on a maypole. It was exciting. Then I saw Angel from a far, and I was mad he didn't dance with me, so I went off and fucked Alec D'urberville but my baby died, so I married Angel, but he divorced me becasue I was "seduced in my sleep" and then I went psycho and killed alec. I was hung. The. End.Okay. That did not happen. Well it did in that stupid book we read for doc wilson, but in reality nice, calm, quiet people do not go psycho and kill their lovers. It just doesn't happen. And sorry, Doctor Wilson IT WAS FRIKIN RAPE. One cannot be seduced in their sleep. Though, as Lyla once pointed out, his wife probably could.Ouch.Um, anyway. My may day was celebrated by forcing teenage boys to run around the block several times then measuring their blood pressure and pulse. Intermittent rain and complaining subjects made this difficult, not to mention technical difficulties on the machine were screwing up the data. But no one really cares about bio. So anyway.There was also work tonight. That hurt. Right here. ::points to black void where heart belongs::And I missed Family Guy. Come on. OuchNow back to school. If I ever write my spanish composition.No one cares about any of this stuff, I'm just rambling.I wish, for the benefit of you readers, that my life was fun and exciting and I had witty and amusing anicdotes for you all. (and perhaps that I could spell?) But I don't. (and I can't)I did build Ryan a nice suck-up cake for accidentaly ditching him on Friday. Even though I didn't. I really didn't.Okay I am done. I concede. You win world.
(comment from molly-->
Man, at first I really thought you went Maypoling. What an image. I did that one year in my front yard, because I longed to live in the Victorian Age.)
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Watch the fire as it slowly burns away Current mood: anxious
Let's make a quick list here:
Things that have sucked this week:
*while I did make money on my plan, it all seemed to immediately disappear and I have none left
*I ate wayy too much, every day but yesterday
*I had to work tonight, and it was a marylin day, and it sucked
*I got hit on by weird bandos (sorry tricia, it's not a good thing in my mind)
*I ripped my malley's skirt
*I will have to write fifty notecards tomorrow night at probably like 12
*I have a huge aching bruise on my knee from running into joe at top speed
*I have a strange bruise on my hand that has a puncture in the middle of it, so I am pretty sure that someone is coming into my room at night and intreveinously feeding me poison, which is slowly killing me and
*the reason I am always and still sick
*I have about an hour tomorrow to get to cleveland public livrary and back before track
*I spent all day monday iether doing homework or getting made fun of
*I tripped over a ladder today and fell and it hurt, even if it was really funny
*I have to re-do a whole bio lab that I lost because I am an inefficient waste of human life
*I can't find a picture of chromosome 21 that makes any
senseThat's all that comes to mind for now.
Oddly enough, I'm not in that bad of a mood, I just cannot wait for the week to reach its conclusion.
Monday, January 24, 2005
Yays and Boos Current mood: contemplative
Yay for
......friends who will beat up people who lower your self esteem
...junior dance, which is FIVE days hence
...understanding how to do precalc
...doing your summer reading on january 24th
...shotput
...finding out that your track coach is nice, even if she does resemble jeanne
...conforming
...coffee
...moms that bake cookies
...randomness
boo for
......people who make your self esteem suck
...people who bother you about irrelevant things
...not understanding why to bother doing precalc
...having to do summer reading at all
...bad backs and creepy chiropractors
...having a prejudice against anyone who looks like your satanic manager jeanne
...non-conformists who ruin things
...fatness
...cookies that give you fatness
...people who try to ruin your happiness
::shrug:: take the good with the bad, I guess
Ifixed some of them up, but for the most part, they are still a mess. It doesn't matter that much, I jsut wanted to keep them. More about why later.
I have a dream... Current mood: confused
A dream I had:
so first of all, the whole scool had to go to this mass thing, but we were in a weird church. The navy was like... in charge of this mass, only it was weird becuase they all had funny hats. I was sitting in a normal seat, but then I got thirsty so I got up for a bottle of water, and when I came back, I had to walk along this precipice ting- almost like the catwalk, but lower to the ground- that they were processing in on. so all the lights are on them, and I'm just doging past them with my bottle of water and candy cane. I'm going against them so it's real fun anywayso there aren't any normal seats left, so I wind up in this weird section that's like all these wodden planks suspended by wires from the ceiling by each of their four corners. I hop on one with swathi and nina and we're j/chillin because no one in this section is serious. then I see on some of the other planks are a bunch of other people, most notably katie blake and ryan tegso as the mass goes on, these navy guys continue. only the thing is, now they all have these funny wigs. then diane vidgak comes, leading a procession of lost army guys to the altar, past our littl reject section. She sees me watching her and she just like mutters as she goes past "yeah I know, this is perfect, isn't it?" with her little parade of army people, who she is leading liek a generalthen tricia comes and she's FREAKING out because she awnts to apply to some school in st. louis, only the app is due that day and she doesn't htink there's time. I think she wanted visgak to recommend her, but that was vague. So she's freaking out, and diane is like... "my god, relax, if it's your top choice school, why did you wait to apply" and trish really had nothing to say to that. so diane made her calm down but she still freaked out, and i remindedh er the st. louis is an hour behjind us and she still had time, but she wouldn't liten to me, she jsut kept runing around, and diane and I gave up on her. so then diane and trish are gone, and I'm swinging around on the wodden slats with nina and various other people. katie is there with ryan, and I'm blatantly drinking my water. we were all talking but I don't know what about. we couldn't really see the preist or anything becasue all the wires from all the planks bocked our view then there's this kid in the navy by me, and he's the only one not wearing a redunckulous hat, and so I start making fun of all the weird wigs to him and then I say, ""oh you must htink I'm mean" but he is like "no, actually, you're the nicest people we've visited all week"then mass ended and I was decorating this room with this girl from my spanish class... and I really wanted to find these flowers to go with this vase, and I finally do and my vase is stolen then I wake up
see. this is what goes on in my head when I cannot control my thoughts. Now you know the truth about me.
Oh, and isn't the music selection today so GANGSTA?
So True, So True Current mood: thirsty
You know you are a catholic school girl when:
1.You mastered the art of cheating and cramming. [[cramming? yes, cheating, not so much]]
2. one word: Retreat [[yup, kairos... me and half the world]]
3. At one time, you liked your uniform [[I still sort of enjoy the idea of not having to pick out clothes in the morning. I'm lazy.]]
4. You got kicks outta being able to wear you PJs to school [[we would if jodi wouldn't come down on us in a fury]]
5. You had a way of making yourself look so innocent when everyone knows that you really aren't. [[oh yeah, everyone does. ]]
6. It cost you 60 bucks to park in the school parking lot [[actually fifty, but whos' counting ]]
7. Everyone hugs each other to greet people [[yeah, either that or viciously attacks them from behind]]
8. At dances, you formed an all-girls circle where no guys could take over [[it seems that usually the guys end up being in that circle.... well at formals, anyway, not the mixers, when we were itty-bitty froshies]]
9. You're blonde, once were, wish you were, or just act like it. [[I was blonde once. And I'd really prefer not to be reminded]]
10. You violated as many dress codes as possible and when you get caught, you pretended that you 'didnt know' [[heh, I haven't buttoned that skirt in years... and I love wearing our soccer jackets]]
11. You have countless obsessions with guys you have never even met or never talked to [[no, but I do know of many guys that I've never talked to, and then I meet them, and I'm like "you're so-and-so's ex" and then it's awkward]]
12. You have NO problem joking around about being a lesbian [[hahaha only with caitlin, cuz we're queer like that. But I prefer the sausage to the taco. Don't worry, I'm quoting a movie and I would never say that in real life]]
13. You spent many a religion class listening to your teacher preach about the Church's take on premarital sex, abortion, and the death penalty [[well we don't get preached to, I had Clark, and generally we jsut discussed... or Gretchen and I defended the liberal views on everything...]]
14. You SERIOUSLY don't know how to shut up [[hahaha stop talking? never!!]]
15. "Remember whens" are your specialty [[yeah lots of bernie's memories with liz and chelso]]16. At least one of your friends names are Jessica, Ashley, Sarah, Katie, Megan, or Lauren [[There are actually not that many jessicas or ashleys, and I know many laurens, but none really at our school. However, Sarah, Katie, and Megan are in abundance. Especially Katies]]
17. your skirts stopped fitting, but were too cheap/lazy to buy new ones, so you just pinned them. [[actually no, I bought new ones that are wayy to big, but I like it]]
18. shaving your legs was optional, even when wearing skirts. actually, putting any effort into your appearance was optional.[[Okay, you know what? I shaveo ne the weekends... but what's the point if I'm going to be at school?]]
19. whenever guys came on campus, the entire school knew their names, cars they were driving, which school they were from and eye color within minutes. [[radar, radar..... not to mention we can smell axe from 100 yards]]
20. The guys just get passed around! [[yeah, it's pretty shady and usualyl the cause of any drama there is]]
21. EveryONE knows about everyone elses business!..even if u've never talked to them!!! [[ohhh yeah, I think I'm a prime example of that...]]
caitlin.
STOP! Pajama time! Current mood: chipper
Currently I am working on a dance recital at Mags (hoorah! I'm finally getting paid to go to school). It's a horrible, horrible drag (I'm getting paid though!) but there are a few good tunes to hear. One includes the timeless classic, Thriller. Ah, it is so fun to be in the back moonwalking for that. Especially when awesome people like Kristen are willing to spend time up there with me. Then there's some awesome hipity-hop songs, like tilt ya head back/ bombs over bahgdad (they are like connected- it's pretty sweet) and make me lose my breath. It's all quite fun to watch Caitlin break out her hip-hop moves at these times. So, while it's mostly pretty boring, at least a) I'm getting paid, and b) I get to have personal dance parties.
In other news, Kristen and I have started a pretty sweet summer project. Yesterday we worked on it for about half an hour, then stole some stuff for further work. I have decided taht Kristen and I are like the worst peole ever, between our stealing and plotting and profit-making schemes. But that's okay. Some people still like us anyway. I think. Am I mislead in this assesment? Oh, dear.
Well I have to go back to Mags in like two hours. Ew.
On the bright side, it looks like there's a trip to Cedar Point in the near future. And I get my hair did on Tuesday and Wednesday I have my senior pictures. Ew shit. I just realised. Next week I have that horrible conditioning camp. Oh god. Chop chop snappy snappy. Oh god.
I am an emotional fuckwit. (love that phrase)
Okay. Well. Bye!
That IS a huge sausage! Current mood: energetic
That title would be in reference to the large, fake, sausage we saw at Flower Child today. It was pretty strange. Who just has a fake sausage decorating their ktichen or whatever? And a huge one at that. The sexual connotation in that is completely rediculus.
Ah, and in lighter (?) news, I AM FREE FROM THE HELL WE CALL SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!! Ack, I'm so excited. So happy and excited, come to think of it, that I am procrastinating on my summer darkness, because I don't want to destroy my good mood. Maybe I'll jsut wait until I'm in a super black mood, then do what it is I've got to do, and then I will be in like SUPER DUPER black mood, and will come out of it all at once. Things might be better that way.
Ah, I'm excited for the summer, and all the fun, late crazy nights you can have during it! Raise your hand if you are excited, as well!
Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I want to go to the beach.
I GET MY PHONE BACK TOMORROW! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Leave me summer lovin'! Or ideas of plans, and if anyone ever wants to do something, I'm usually around, because I'm a tool. With no friends. Well, few friends. Well, few single friends that aren't too busy with their boy/girlfriends, anyway.
AH! Smiles!!!!!!!!!!!
It's Not What You Say... Current mood: drained
Today was adecent fay until I went to track and was reminded that I have no talent for anything in this world, and that there is nothing for which I shine out for. I'm pretty medicore at everything. Now, admittedly, I'd rather admit to being medicore and get on with life than try to glorify myself into somthing I'm not, but it is none-the-less saddening to know that I stand out in no way from amongst the people I know. There's nothing to make me special- I haven't got something (or someone, I suppose) to completely dedicate myself to, as do many people. I just don't know what to do with myself.One of the scariest things ever happened today. I started laughing. For no reason really. I just started, and then I couldn't stop. There was literally NO reason to be cracking up like I was, but I just kept going, even when I told myself to stop. When I was done, I almost curled into a ball and cried. That's all I wanted to do right theno nce the laughing was over- to cry a thousand times more than I laughed. But I sucked it up and pretended to do my Ab workout.So if anyone sees me twitching for the remainder of the week, I recommend... backing away slowly?Yeah. That's probably your best option.
I'm so far gone now Current mood: pissed off
I am no longer on the brink of tears. I was, for a bit, but now, anger and revenge have wroght themselves upon me, and thus I am out for vengance. My day was a downhill fall, but I want to try to adhere to my twelve step program. Thus, I will find the things wrong with my life, and find the good in them.
1) got back like five million (or two) f's in precalc, and am terribly pissed at self--- but on the bright side, I didn't actually lose that many points, and since I have been keeping up with the work that's going on right now, I may be able to compensate a bit for that.
2) am in pain because I missed practice for a week, then went back yesterday and did wayyy too much lifting.---however, the pain will subside soon enough, and I will be stronger for it
3) did really shitty at practice---thinking about it, it's really because of the pain. I just have to keep working.
4) had to go to wake for colleen, which wouldn't have been bad at all if not for presance of the most annoying, disgusting creature on this earth. possibly second to jeanne---realize that no one can really stand htis creature, besides possibly the bitch queen who shall remain anonymous, and thus come out winner. Also didn't wear mother's heinous old suit, like creature, but rather cute blazer from Gap.
5) went to malley's, where I learned I have to work a bunch of days, including ST PATRICKS DAY from 1-7.---realised that I will be forcing each and every one of my friends to come visit me, so they can fucking shove it
6) at malley's, learned that jeanne is trying to get me fired---came to enlightenment that a) I do more work than anyone else at malley's, and if they fire me, not only will they regret it, but I will hove tonnes more free time and b) I have a plan to get jeanne fired.
7) thought about it, and realised I am a vengeful, hateful person, ergo, the reason for why I tread through life, desolate and alone.---nooope, not really coming up with anything for that one.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
shit, tremours.
The Sun Sets With the Truth on its Back Current mood: confused
eck. Myspace is in cali time, a time I don't run on very well. This means it is actually what? 2:41 am? Geez, I am a loser.Things I learned today:
You can drive on Superior, Detroit, Clifton, and Lake all by driving in a straight line
It is not a good idea to put your wet arm on an antique desk you made your mom let you have in your room
Sometimes you don't want to be on the inside of a joke
Buffalo contain smallpox
Three Gallons is enough when your life is threatened
I look very pasty in my picture
How to get around downtown Cleveland
Junior dance isn't worth the headache (just like sophomore dance wasn't)
that is all.go to my bloge, btw
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
The World Wide Webster Current mood: geeky
The dictionary is awesome. It teaches you how to talk. Talking pisses people off. Pissing people off makes you feel fuzzy inside.I do not know jack shit about government. Thank you.Guess what life is like without internet? Bad. So very bad.Tomorrow I shall go to New York and sap stupid New Yorkians into thinking I am British.British people kick ass.I am not british, so I suck.
Monday, May 09, 2005
Three Doors Down Current mood: crushed
Well, today was busy, semi-exciting, and excruciatingly exhausting. First of all, AP bio. Yeah, that was four hours of bubble-filling fun! Nothing says "I'm having a blast" like filling out ovals until your eyes bleed and your hand whithers away. After this I eventually proceeded to swimming with steg, after making her some baked apples, which were pretty good, but I was too lazy to cook them the whole way, so they were a little crunchy. (as if anyone cares about my culinary pursuits) After this I returned home and layed out once again (did I mention I did that yesterday and that now my appearance rivals that of a tomato?) and read "Teen Idol" which was excellent, sort of predicatable, as meg cabot books have now become, but there were elements of the plot that kept me.... twistedly amused, shall we say. I guess. That sounds different than how I actually meant it. But whatever.Then I ended up babysitting for this girl in Caitlin Anne's stead. She was all nice and such. It involved wayyyyyyy too much physical activity, none of which I am supposed to do, owing to the fact that I am broken. I ran around a block, full speed, chasing four girls on bikes. In my precious adidas sandals (which never fail me) Yeah.... I'm wayyyy out of shape. But it was cool. Then we invented obstacle courses for each other. Also okay, but more physcial activity than I really needed. So all in all I had a workout today, mentally and physically. I'm pooped, as some might say.You know what sucks? Irony, THATS WHAT SUCKS. Like when you by chance get seated next to a friend of yours at the SATs, but then, noooo she's not taking the SAT Is and they put her in the wrong room, and they send someone to replace her, and it's someone you know! But oh, wait, it's one of the two people in the world you loathe. Sweet Stef. You suck.There are a lot of otherthings in this world that make me unhappy, as well. :-(Well, I just thought I'd drop another myspace line. Leavecomments, bitches.
Sunday, May 01, 2005
May Day Current mood: mellow
Today we all dressed in white gowns and danced about and twirled ribbons on a maypole. It was exciting. Then I saw Angel from a far, and I was mad he didn't dance with me, so I went off and fucked Alec D'urberville but my baby died, so I married Angel, but he divorced me becasue I was "seduced in my sleep" and then I went psycho and killed alec. I was hung. The. End.Okay. That did not happen. Well it did in that stupid book we read for doc wilson, but in reality nice, calm, quiet people do not go psycho and kill their lovers. It just doesn't happen. And sorry, Doctor Wilson IT WAS FRIKIN RAPE. One cannot be seduced in their sleep. Though, as Lyla once pointed out, his wife probably could.Ouch.Um, anyway. My may day was celebrated by forcing teenage boys to run around the block several times then measuring their blood pressure and pulse. Intermittent rain and complaining subjects made this difficult, not to mention technical difficulties on the machine were screwing up the data. But no one really cares about bio. So anyway.There was also work tonight. That hurt. Right here. ::points to black void where heart belongs::And I missed Family Guy. Come on. OuchNow back to school. If I ever write my spanish composition.No one cares about any of this stuff, I'm just rambling.I wish, for the benefit of you readers, that my life was fun and exciting and I had witty and amusing anicdotes for you all. (and perhaps that I could spell?) But I don't. (and I can't)I did build Ryan a nice suck-up cake for accidentaly ditching him on Friday. Even though I didn't. I really didn't.Okay I am done. I concede. You win world.
(comment from molly-->
Man, at first I really thought you went Maypoling. What an image. I did that one year in my front yard, because I longed to live in the Victorian Age.)
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Watch the fire as it slowly burns away Current mood: anxious
Let's make a quick list here:
Things that have sucked this week:
*while I did make money on my plan, it all seemed to immediately disappear and I have none left
*I ate wayy too much, every day but yesterday
*I had to work tonight, and it was a marylin day, and it sucked
*I got hit on by weird bandos (sorry tricia, it's not a good thing in my mind)
*I ripped my malley's skirt
*I will have to write fifty notecards tomorrow night at probably like 12
*I have a huge aching bruise on my knee from running into joe at top speed
*I have a strange bruise on my hand that has a puncture in the middle of it, so I am pretty sure that someone is coming into my room at night and intreveinously feeding me poison, which is slowly killing me and
*the reason I am always and still sick
*I have about an hour tomorrow to get to cleveland public livrary and back before track
*I spent all day monday iether doing homework or getting made fun of
*I tripped over a ladder today and fell and it hurt, even if it was really funny
*I have to re-do a whole bio lab that I lost because I am an inefficient waste of human life
*I can't find a picture of chromosome 21 that makes any
senseThat's all that comes to mind for now.
Oddly enough, I'm not in that bad of a mood, I just cannot wait for the week to reach its conclusion.
Monday, January 24, 2005
Yays and Boos Current mood: contemplative
Yay for
......friends who will beat up people who lower your self esteem
...junior dance, which is FIVE days hence
...understanding how to do precalc
...doing your summer reading on january 24th
...shotput
...finding out that your track coach is nice, even if she does resemble jeanne
...conforming
...coffee
...moms that bake cookies
...randomness
boo for
......people who make your self esteem suck
...people who bother you about irrelevant things
...not understanding why to bother doing precalc
...having to do summer reading at all
...bad backs and creepy chiropractors
...having a prejudice against anyone who looks like your satanic manager jeanne
...non-conformists who ruin things
...fatness
...cookies that give you fatness
...people who try to ruin your happiness
::shrug:: take the good with the bad, I guess
Ifixed some of them up, but for the most part, they are still a mess. It doesn't matter that much, I jsut wanted to keep them. More about why later.