Nothing's Unconditional

I am so bored.

Not just bored right now. Bored with my life. I think I figure that that is why I was so very emo yesterday. It seems like things are just moving very slowly. Yet, at the same time, time is passing so fast- the first month of summer is nearly over. And I have the soccer camp from hell to look forward to. But that's about it. It seems like my whole summer has been filled with obligations and appointments. It hasn't been as fun as I would have liked it to be. And it doesn't really look like it's going to get any more fun. I'm in one of those "my life isn't going anywhere" moods. I know, I know, it's annoying. I'm sorry I really am.

Maybe I'll jsut go outside (in the daytime) and work on the fort. I hauled tarp out there today and covered it (for it isn't completely waterproof yet) and look out... it didn't frikin rain.

I saw Bewitched today. It was pretty good. Kind of chick flicky, but emo moods make me like chick flicks more. Not enough to ever like the horrible "movie" called The Notebook but yeah.

Ugh. I don't know what to do with myself.

Drop a Heart, Break a Name

And will you look at that? I have changed my blog set up! This is because I just really wanted comments back. I'm pretty sure anyone can post comments (If I set this up right) not just blogger people. So start making me feel special.

In the meantime, Kristen is here, and I'm depressed, and we're sititng on my bed watching Avitar: The Last Airbender. It's pretty sweet. I'm Waiting for Danny Phantom to come on, because I love that show and I'm not afraid to admit it.

Um yeah. NOthing new to report since today. AKA still kind of pissed of at the world.

And that is all.

Do Not Open Before Christmas

In six months it will be Christmas Eve. Maybe things will be better then.

I don't get it. What do you have to do for your life not to suck?

I think I learned (from Gladiator, which is an awesome movie and it was on TV the other day and I was really excited about that.) that the honest man never wins. There are too many liars out there for the good guys to really get ahead. Sure, once in a while you get lucky, but for the most part, in the real world, the good guys just finish last.

So fuck it. Go dark side.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I am so angry at the general unfairness of life right now.

Open Up My Eager Eyes

Weeeeeeee! I'm at the salon, getting my hair did. There has been an excellent music line up... incuding snow patrol, the killers, modest mouse, muse... It's just a blast! I love this place. They like frikin cater to you (water is good) and I get to play on the computer! And talk to people online... not that a whole lot of people are online at 2:15 on a... Tuesday? afternoon.

Today is considered the first official day of summer. As strange as it is to think, after this day, the days start getting shorter. Yet, truly the summer has just begun.

I was watching Collateral today. It's quite excellent- even if I do believe Tommy Cruise is a little on the homosexual side, he's an excellent actor. Plus, we all know homosexuals are excellent actors. Hehheh, I swear that's not a snide reference to the musicals a Mags. But really I love those thespians. Anyway, but I'm mad I missed the end of it because I had to come here.

I think Kristen and I shall be hard at work today. Perhaps my hoe will give me more blisters?

mmmmmmmm, accents. Yummy.

These Words Are All I Have

Hi! well tonight was pretty sweet. I began my evening by helping elizabeth with her gold award project (I was supposed to do one, too, but I kind of got cut out of the group- long story) and unpacking and packing these boxes.. that was sorta fun, hanging out with Liz and Chels like back in the bernadette's days.

Then after I joined many a person at putput. (I would just like to point out that I loathe put put.) (I simply do not have the patience for it) This was after Lasertag failed miserably (which I just realised was stupid. The thing with Elizabeth was on Sterns road. So basically I drove from sterns to 220th then back to leer. Wow. I just wasted tonnes of gas). so yeah, Katie, Steg, Scott, Mike, Meggie (who I have now finally met), Christian (who finally met me), Ricky, and I engaged in the horrible routine known as putput. Meggie and I didn't like putput very much, so we sort of became anti-social together. It was nice. On the final hole (mind you I wasn't allowed to hold my instrument of putputting [aka putter] because I managed to nearly castrate scott with it, and that's frowned upon) I was allowed to put again, but it's not really a hole, you know, just this stupid little thing which is just an excuse for them to get their ball back... well anyway, so I decided to hit it really really hard. I managed to hit it straight over the little set up and I have no idea where it went. Naturally, my putter was taken away from me again.

So anyway, after we hit up The Alps. There was lots of randomness there, including duck duck goose, red rover, lava tag (where I hid for like the entire time.), tree climbing, marijuana smoking, bouncyball losing, frisbeeing, and other nonsense. Quite a good time. Then I came here! I guess I'm being anti-social right now but whatever.

It's great how some things can bother you forever, then all of a sudden, they don't matter at all.

Anyway, so in honour of the summer, I have decided to live by the motto "you have to try everything once". So there's going to be lots of randomness this summer for me, I have decided. Live by the seat of your pants or whatever. Heh heh, this should be fun.

::evil wink::

toodles, darlings.

It's Hard to Explain

ooooooooh ::moan:: I feel so sick. Why am I always sick? Maybe Katie and Ryan are right- maybe I'm a hypochondriac. But those are people who like over-react to every little thing that is wrong with them. I'm pretty sure vomiting isn't something little that I'm frekaing out about. I blame that shake from Baskin Robins. It was delicious. For a while. Then I started feeling ill. So I stopped drinking it. Now I'm really ill. I think those damn people put like pcp in it or something. Because it seriously doesn't take fifteen minutes to make three little shakes. They had to be spiking with something. And naturally pcp is my conclusion.

To top it off, I have a headache like whoa. I guess five point five hours of being at school during the summer (really eight point five) will do that to anyone. It didn't kick in until Applebee's though. That waitress had to have thought we were stoned- KatieSpi was just completely staring at nothing, Caitlin was rattling off... words... lots of words... and I kept confusing myself.

Okay, I'm sorry I'm complaining. That's like all I do, I know. I'm just mad. While this summer has basically remained emo-free, it has also pretty much sucked. I've been sick the whole time. When I wasn't sick, I was working (because I signed up to- so it was my own fault). Oh, and just to top it off, I'm pretty much an emotional fuckwit, and managed to royally screw things up because I am, and probably always will be, an idiot.

Actualyl today wasn't that bad. In between rehersal and recital, Kristen stopped by. We made plans. Really sweet plans. There's a slight glitch in them, but I haven't mentioned that to her as of yet. Besides that they shall be marvelous.

I have blisters from my hoe. Teehee. Well anyway, I'm going to take care of that- the blister I mean- and then sleep off my illness. Then back to Mags tomorrow. Whooo-hoo!