Oh, life's so bad, isn't it? The world just sucks, doesn't it? Look at it- its bleak and black and no one caress about you and youdont care about them. Because it doesnt matterwhat anyone else says, you know exactly how it is- and since you know exactly how it is, then there's no point to living cuz there's nothing to learn, right?
Well if that's true, then we might as well all just fucking die, right?
Sure, there's probably no meaning to life, and its not easy to survive in today's stupid over-sorperate world, but hell, it beats the alternative. Have fun with your life, and liveday-by-day and don't think about the uselessness. Its not all about the problems.
Go to hell.
yo fricken ho
Saturday, March 20, 2004
Friday, March 19, 2004
Went to the play and them to Malley's. Harassing the Corn-Pads is ever so much fun. ::clasps hands together::
Um, so, I feel bad cuz I couldn't go to the Prodigals concert with Caitlin. Mis padres were like "Beachwood? no." I was like, "suuuuure"
So, I think a certain friend, whom we shall call "Kelley", is mad at me. But I'm getting annoyed with her- I feel like she keeps ditching me for her many guys, and while I know communication sometimes gets messed up, for it to happen EVERY TIME we try to hang out is not typical. And I like, assume we are still friends, but I just feel like I am getting left behind. Its not that se should stop making new friends- just don't completely ditch me, you know?
Its amazing how you can be surrounded by people and still feel completely alone. Its not like people try to alienate you or anything, its just like no one sees you. I mean, you can even talk to people and feel so alone. Gotta keep reminding myself- don't let it get to me. Right. I think it is so much worse to be ignored rather than being hated. At least you know they see you when you're hated- why do the things others do affect us so much? I hate when I let myself feel that way.
I am tired and kind of sick right now because of the ice cream. I think I'll be off, soon as I break the news to Caitlin and Travis that I am leaving. I know they will be oh-so-heart-broken.
yo ho
yo ho
a (sick AGAIN) pirate's life for
~me
Um, so, I feel bad cuz I couldn't go to the Prodigals concert with Caitlin. Mis padres were like "Beachwood? no." I was like, "suuuuure"
So, I think a certain friend, whom we shall call "Kelley", is mad at me. But I'm getting annoyed with her- I feel like she keeps ditching me for her many guys, and while I know communication sometimes gets messed up, for it to happen EVERY TIME we try to hang out is not typical. And I like, assume we are still friends, but I just feel like I am getting left behind. Its not that se should stop making new friends- just don't completely ditch me, you know?
Its amazing how you can be surrounded by people and still feel completely alone. Its not like people try to alienate you or anything, its just like no one sees you. I mean, you can even talk to people and feel so alone. Gotta keep reminding myself- don't let it get to me. Right. I think it is so much worse to be ignored rather than being hated. At least you know they see you when you're hated- why do the things others do affect us so much? I hate when I let myself feel that way.
I am tired and kind of sick right now because of the ice cream. I think I'll be off, soon as I break the news to Caitlin and Travis that I am leaving. I know they will be oh-so-heart-broken.
yo ho
yo ho
a (sick AGAIN) pirate's life for
~me
Thursday, March 18, 2004
oh, but where to begin with the ever-riotous day?
(is riotous a word?) mmmhm, I embarass myself sometimes... no, quite often, actually.
Anyway, where, oh where to begine with this ever-amazing week, which has really been just an extended weekend...
Monday- so, had to go to school, which was stupid, as we had no morning classes for those stupid OGTs. Then I might have skipped crew....because I was paranoid to drive? yeah, thats right...heh heh. No, actually, I went to Target (again, notice) with colleen to hang out with my new friends (as they are now referred to by my old friends). It was, um, as the frenchies would say tres amusaunt. (hey, leave me alone- I cant even spell in english and you expect me to spell in french, no gracias!)
Tuesday- OH MY GOD. we....had a snow day! despite the fact that when they called school, there was maybe 1/12 an inch of snow on the ground, and I was like "sure!" and was in my car, dressed, sitting with kate, wondering where in the hell dever was and about to drive to school. so, I called Elizabeth at around 7:30, and went to her house at 8 AM (cuz we are psychos like that) and we, like the losers we are, played video games. I fanally opened Soul Caliber II* (from christmas, mind you) and, oh, yes, it was a fun, fun time, beating each other up. Luego, we rented Air Force One, which is really an amazing movie, but I havent seen it in a long, long time. Entonces, we watched FINDING NEMO, which is quite possibly the BEST kids movie ever...I mean, I dont enjoy that movie... then we went to target to get a card for Mrs. Hazel...and I am a loser...and felt like a stalker. But Im not! ... then I went home at like 12, so basically I spent about 15ish hours at her house, while never managing to get over to Doms house (who lives across the street) to get my winter formal pictures....oops...
Yesterday- St. Paddy's day! Break out the guiness, lass! okay, well, now that I am over the cornelius (monk)- inspired irishness,... um, so, parade, that was fun. Never really founf collen and crew...yeah. Then I went to Borders with Lyla nad Caitlin and my new friends...well, danny and steve anyway...and then to bruegers, where we all forced Lyla to consume soup. Stupid blighter tried to trick me into eating it...I saw taht, I did. Then, around 8 Pm, I went to bed. Oh, hell yeah, I know how to party up my St. Paddy's day....
Today-Was about to leave school when wasi nformed that entire Sputnik project had pretty much died. So corn pads and I glued it back together for an HOUR. yes, one hour, in the room, packed up with komo. gha! then I went to panera, and then I drove around N.O. for a while in blizzard-like snow, only to be deserted. yeah. more fun.
so, anyway. Itsn't my life filled with interest and meaning? I did almost have a near-death experience on saturday...I hit a car! So what if I was traveling at like...2 k/hr and the car was parked? not important, I tell you- colleen and caitlin and I were all in dire...ness...
oh! cookies! have to take them out!
More cheap break-and-bakes like that stuff at ElizaBeth's. almost yum...only those I believe were, what? black? thats right...
Anyway, I should return to socializing. Or rather, figuring out my plans with caitlin bout the concert tomorrow. I wonder if we'll go? ::shakes magic 8-ball:: "seems doubtful", oh, well, thats hopeful.
Song stuck in head right now:
I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was going to be a lonely lonely
Lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes
And try to tell myself I can’t
Go back to bed
It’s gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be
I just got here and I already want to leave
It’s gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day
Everybody knows that something’s wrong
But nobody knows what’s going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It’s shaping up to be a lonely day
I could tell from the minute I woke up it was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
(actually, just that last line is stuck..annoying much?)
yo ho
yo ho
a (cookie-baking machine or a) pirate;s life for
~me
* sorry to the like 3 of you out there who read this, I know none of you have a clue in hell what I'm talking about, but video games own you. Katie, for any questions or concerns, please refer to gary. ::breaks into the music man::
(is riotous a word?) mmmhm, I embarass myself sometimes... no, quite often, actually.
Anyway, where, oh where to begine with this ever-amazing week, which has really been just an extended weekend...
Monday- so, had to go to school, which was stupid, as we had no morning classes for those stupid OGTs. Then I might have skipped crew....because I was paranoid to drive? yeah, thats right...heh heh. No, actually, I went to Target (again, notice) with colleen to hang out with my new friends (as they are now referred to by my old friends). It was, um, as the frenchies would say tres amusaunt. (hey, leave me alone- I cant even spell in english and you expect me to spell in french, no gracias!)
Tuesday- OH MY GOD. we....had a snow day! despite the fact that when they called school, there was maybe 1/12 an inch of snow on the ground, and I was like "sure!" and was in my car, dressed, sitting with kate, wondering where in the hell dever was and about to drive to school. so, I called Elizabeth at around 7:30, and went to her house at 8 AM (cuz we are psychos like that) and we, like the losers we are, played video games. I fanally opened Soul Caliber II* (from christmas, mind you) and, oh, yes, it was a fun, fun time, beating each other up. Luego, we rented Air Force One, which is really an amazing movie, but I havent seen it in a long, long time. Entonces, we watched FINDING NEMO, which is quite possibly the BEST kids movie ever...I mean, I dont enjoy that movie... then we went to target to get a card for Mrs. Hazel...and I am a loser...and felt like a stalker. But Im not! ... then I went home at like 12, so basically I spent about 15ish hours at her house, while never managing to get over to Doms house (who lives across the street) to get my winter formal pictures....oops...
Yesterday- St. Paddy's day! Break out the guiness, lass! okay, well, now that I am over the cornelius (monk)- inspired irishness,... um, so, parade, that was fun. Never really founf collen and crew...yeah. Then I went to Borders with Lyla nad Caitlin and my new friends...well, danny and steve anyway...and then to bruegers, where we all forced Lyla to consume soup. Stupid blighter tried to trick me into eating it...I saw taht, I did. Then, around 8 Pm, I went to bed. Oh, hell yeah, I know how to party up my St. Paddy's day....
Today-Was about to leave school when wasi nformed that entire Sputnik project had pretty much died. So corn pads and I glued it back together for an HOUR. yes, one hour, in the room, packed up with komo. gha! then I went to panera, and then I drove around N.O. for a while in blizzard-like snow, only to be deserted. yeah. more fun.
so, anyway. Itsn't my life filled with interest and meaning? I did almost have a near-death experience on saturday...I hit a car! So what if I was traveling at like...2 k/hr and the car was parked? not important, I tell you- colleen and caitlin and I were all in dire...ness...
oh! cookies! have to take them out!
More cheap break-and-bakes like that stuff at ElizaBeth's. almost yum...only those I believe were, what? black? thats right...
Anyway, I should return to socializing. Or rather, figuring out my plans with caitlin bout the concert tomorrow. I wonder if we'll go? ::shakes magic 8-ball:: "seems doubtful", oh, well, thats hopeful.
Song stuck in head right now:
I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was going to be a lonely lonely
Lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes
And try to tell myself I can’t
Go back to bed
It’s gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be
I just got here and I already want to leave
It’s gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day
Everybody knows that something’s wrong
But nobody knows what’s going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It’s shaping up to be a lonely day
I could tell from the minute I woke up it was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
(actually, just that last line is stuck..annoying much?)
yo ho
yo ho
a (cookie-baking machine or a) pirate;s life for
~me
* sorry to the like 3 of you out there who read this, I know none of you have a clue in hell what I'm talking about, but video games own you. Katie, for any questions or concerns, please refer to gary. ::breaks into the music man::
Sunday, March 14, 2004
soooooooooooooooooooo
On Friday, I went to the moveis with Lyla and her brother John. We saw Secret Window (can you say johnny depp?) and we sat by these cute, cute boiz.
and they followed us into Borders, and we talked to them, and it was amazing, and we gave them my phone number, and we got yelled at by the police, and it was amusing.
and today I went to Target and one of them was there! It was amazing...
Hot.
bye
yo ho
yo ho
a (ransomly boi crazy) pirate's life for
~me
On Friday, I went to the moveis with Lyla and her brother John. We saw Secret Window (can you say johnny depp?) and we sat by these cute, cute boiz.
and they followed us into Borders, and we talked to them, and it was amazing, and we gave them my phone number, and we got yelled at by the police, and it was amusing.
and today I went to Target and one of them was there! It was amazing...
Hot.
bye
yo ho
yo ho
a (ransomly boi crazy) pirate's life for
~me