Saturday, June 26, 2004

That's it.

The cord's getting ripped out of this computer, and I'm turning off my cell phone. You wanna get a hold of me, call the house.

That means you Elizabeth.

yo
freaking
ho

Thursday, June 24, 2004

...a long, long, time ago...
So I'm kinda sittin here thinkin about how I suck.
First of all, I totally forgot my parent's anniversary, which was on Tuesday, which means that instead of letting htem have a nice night alone and such, I had 10 people over to fully destroy my house (and bring in ants........ewww)
Second of all, I continue to be in pain, which is rather patheitc. And that missing skin on my hand? Yeah, still kind of impeeding life in general.
And thridly are reasons which I will not state in thsi blog.
God, I'm so lazy, forgive me. I don't feel like imparting my wisdom and whatnot on you all.
Oh, and yeah, I feel unappreciated. I know, tis whiny and selfish of me. But whatever.
Does it mattter what I say or think anymore? Does anyone even read this blog? Besides Elizabeth, anyway, who's life I just saved thank you very much.
..the sun doesn't give the light to the moon assuming the moon's going to owe it one...
Oh, so I read the Daughters of the Moon book 11 today. Those girls are all such whores- kind of like other people I know.
I stayed home today for the most part, besides a trip to Lyla's, which was stupid because: I should have been cleaning; I didn't really want to hang out with anyone; I rode my bike there, even though I'm in an eternal state of pain...and yeah. I didn't really want to be out, so it was stupid, aand as usual, I felt unnecessary. I love how I learned to spell that word! I love how I can type a worthwhile portion of this without looking, and at a decent speed, too. Keyboarding sucks, indeed, but it's actually helping me, so I oughtn't complain.
So, after soccer, I spent the evening at home by myself for the first time all summer. I thought it would be nice to relax, but I instead just remind myself how I'm a failure. Yes...I know, no one wants to hear it, I'll shut up. People say, "no, you don't suck" but no one has any proof. It's all about the proof! Where would CSI be without proof? Nowhere, I say.
...I'll never be what you want me to be...
I wish I was someone else right now. Green with envy, and evil minded besides. God, I'm a horrid person.
...victory's lost, and the losses won...
actually, those lyrics are most likely inaccurate like my typing, as I can't understand that guy's accent v. well.
Well, anyway, I have to clean my room- tis getting a-painted on Saturday! I'm tres excited.
Oh, and so I was trying to decide how I felt about myself, so I did something wierd. I put my RealPlayer on random, and took the first song it heard as a sign or something.
Yeah, Phantom Planet- Big Brat. Way to be me.
...never knowing it was always flesh and lace...
by the way, to those who care, that is so the Jason version of the song, not the Modern English one. Jason has a v. soothing, carefree, amazing voice.
Okay, I best be off. Bye to those who love me.
And there are those of you out there who don't. I know it, there is no need to deny it. I really am such a big brat.
...how can I learn to let go of you...
To finish the day: sleep, keyboarding, stegs, somewhere random, soccer (which I actually don't have tomorrow, as its my day off), somewhere else random, lather, rinse, repeat....

and thats my summer in a predictable nutshell.

yo ho
yo ho
a (bored) pirate's life for
~me

P.S.: to whom it my concern, I talked for a long, long time with elizabeth yesterday, and we're cool, and no, it had nothing to do with Steve, so will people stop asking me that?

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Hi, I'm here in keyboarding again, sitting next to Molly, struggling to type with this stupid blocker on the keys.
so, yeah. Like I thought, yesterday was kind of stupid. I mean, it was fun, but I had too high of expectations for the war.
And, okay, I am thouroughly beat up. First there's the whole "I ran into a metal pole in the ground" thing. Then cuz Danny tripped me, on the cement, I have a tumor-like growth coming out of my shin. Not to mention, my back hurts so bad, I can barely bend over. Ow, leg spasm.
Okay, well, I am getting a little better at this typing thing. And, yeah.

Um, not much more to say...
Is there ever anything worthwile to say here?
I continue to be a failure at life.

I hate:
Danny, because he beat me cruelly
this class, cuz its STUPID
Jo-Anne, cuz she's doing way better at her drills than I am
Shamis, because I think he made me crush in my head
My team, because we lost
Me, because I ran into that pole
Dever, b.c its her fault I ran into it b/c I was saving her

yo ho
yo ho
a pirate's life for
~me

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

note: if you feel like reading an actual post, see below...

I got bored, so I though I'd do this again (refer to wednesday, March 24th for an older one)
So, I haven't filled one of these guys out recently, and I feel bored, so what the hell? Let's do it!

Name : Stephanie Lynn Kahl (mmmh, stalkers? where?)
Birthday : 12/23/87
Current Location : Westlake Ohio, in my house, in the computer room, in the chair, where I always am
Eye Color : a nice, boring hue of grey-blue
Hair Color : Dark brown, naturally- however, today I would have to call it......BLONDE
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac Sign : Capricorn, the sea goat, aka the odd sign of a goat-fish hybrid (See, I am a fish)

[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music : Anythin. I swear. Give me a CD and I'll listen to it.
Color : orange, still, though I have had an attraction to pink recently
Slushy Flavor :Still not much of a slushie drinker...but I'll be a conformist and go with cherry
Magazine : well, to be true, I'd much rather read TIME or Newsweek than seventeen, but mum won't take a subscription olut to those...or nintendo power, for that matter
TV Show : Ugh, I still don't watch TV...but I do kind of find that 70s show amusing..you know, the two episodes I've seen
Song at the Moment:hmmm, like I said, I listen to so many songs, I can' keep them straight- not to mention, I don't know who sings half the songs I listen to We'll stick to JAson Mraz's "On love, in sadness" b.c its so.....true
Language: English, spanish, occasional gibberish
State: Illinois- home of the chicago (not that I've actually been there, mind you)
Food &Beverage : Food: I'm not sure- food has been treating me oddly recently...like I dont eat it anyore, and when I do, I'm not htinking about it- beverage: ice cold glass of....water. Or double shots.
Subject in School : oh, wait its....summer! So therefore, I have but one option: keyboarding
Weekend Activity : war...but why save it for the weekend?
Season: Winter - snowbunny.....bunnies...ah
Vacation: Arizona? Its the only one I've really been on

[ series 3 - what is ]
The meaning behind your screen name: RedSpark11- inside joke from like 5th grade involving my dog and a red colored piece of paper, plus eleven is mi numero favorito; WhatNotZ23- WhatNots is a favorite word of mine, Z stands for Zelda (no, Im not a nazi) and 23 is the date of my birth; IBDumbledore- I am Dumbledore. If you didnt know, why did you ask?
Your most overused phrase on IM: riiiiiiight, lol, ....- yeah, I think thats most of them
The last thought you go to sleep with : that's for me to know and you never to find out
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : HAIR! and heigh, too, I suppose, but mostly HAIR!
Your best feature : not applicable
Your bedtime : mum says 12, but she hasn't yet noticed that I stay up until 3 everyday
Your greatest fear : losing. people. to other people.
Your most missed memory : Don't rememeber

[ series 4 - do you ]
Take a shower everyday? : more or less- I'll admit, I skip once in a while, but for the most part, yeah
Want to go to college? :want is such a strong word...more like I'm morally obligated to myself...well, really, I do...only to be on my own and be able to make money
Like high school? : I have to say I'm coping with it
Want to get married : I don't know anymore
Believe in yourself? : I think, therefore I am- stupid, that is
Have any tattoos/where? : none
Have any piercings/where? : one in each ear, not that I ever actually wear earrings
Get motion sickness? : on those bloody ski club busses, yet not the rides at CP
Think you're a health freak? : no, but it would be better if I was
Get along with your parents? : they love me, I hate them, it works out
Like thunderstorms? : omg, yes! and we've had so many recently, it rocks

[ series 5 - the future ]
Age you hope to be married : whenever
Number and Names of Children : um, adopting- labour=pain, pain=bad
Where do you see yourself in five years? : anywhere but here
Describe your Dream Wedding : I don't have one, but I think it be fun to have it outdoors
How do you want to die? : quickly and painlessly
What do you want to be when you grow up? : A psychiatrist, or maybe a psychologist, I cannot decide
What country would you most like to visit? :Ireland, England, Austrailia, Italy....oh, just one?

[ series 6 - other ]
How many rings until you answer the phone? :ah, phones....yeah, um, I have a dong now, it doesn't really ring...
How many houses have you lived in? : 2- whopping block away from eachother
How many schools have you gone to? : 3-pre-school, bernadettes, mags
What color is your bedroom carpet? : some gross, boring shade of grey
What was the best time of your life so far? : hard to say....my life is unbelievably dull- but war is pretty cool...and NOT the duct tape festival

NOW
Current mood: kinda subdued, not looking forward to soccer
Current music: computer doesn't work when the music's on...oh, wait.. it just doesnt work
Current hair: grody-ness, as I haven't washed it since I was attacked by water balloons, and there's no pointi n washing it until after soccer
Current clothes: red shorts, blue tshirt, grey jacket b/c I get cold now
Current annoyance: um....lost of things. A bunch of little stupid things that all add together
Current smell: cigarettes. stupid father. won't die. not happy.
Current longing: to feel wanted (still)
Current desktop picture: same as always- pretty, pretty boys
Current fingernail color: left over sophmore dance pink color..hey wait...this is the same answer as last time...
Current crush: mmmmmmmmhm, I'll never tell
Current hate: mmmmmmmmhm...things...hey look, I think I typed the same number of m's
Current favorite article of clothing: my pirate shirt and my really expensive pants from Urban Outfitters
Last CD that you bought: bought? Lost Prophets...too bad I bought that in like March..but I have a lot recently burned...
Favorite place to be: Holiday Valley for trips, and random people's hosues can be fun, too
Time you wake up in the morning: 7:45 my alarm goes off, but I've been known to wake earlier on my own
Do you believe in an afterlife?: I really really want to, but I really really can't
How tall are you?: 5'7"...ish...
Current favorite word: werd, -ish, yo, bloody

right. Still a failure.
Entering in post 236...
Roger that.
So the war is supposed to go down tonight. I'm hping it's not a disapppointment, as everyone is looking rather forward to it. And if it is, for whatever reason, stupid, well, I'd hate for everyone to waste their time on me.
Because, let's face it, I'm not worth wasting time on.
Keyboarding is the bane of my existance. I hate typing
so, bye!

yo ho
yo ho
a (battle-worthy?) pirate's life for
~me

Sunday, June 20, 2004

Ah, look. Blogging. Too bad I don't feel like it, as I'm tired and not looking forward to the evening. But since the computer let me on finally, I shall.
So yesterday I did indeed stop by the duct tape festival. It was rearded, I went with Shamis and Heather and DAnny and it was a tool. Useless. We left after like fifteen minutes then returned to my house. We played war. Lets see, Rob broke blood vessels, I ripped off skin, heather sustained bite marks, danny some nice bruises, and shamis just is immune or something. But he sprained his elbow. Right.
Anyway, so yeah, that was fun, and we have plans for a large all-out-war-fiasco at the house on Wednesday. RSVP to me!
Oh, speaking of getting a hold of me. So, I have a cell phone now! See, here's how it goes: So we went to Verizon yesterday afternoon, after I spent the earlier part of the afternoon cooped up in the hospital drinking hazelnut latte and the whatnot. Since the phone is lost (yeah, I got ahold of Galmo, and no, he didn't have it) we supposedly had it insured, so all we would have done was had the same one mailed to us, right? Well, my parents didnt have it insured, so I had to pay for a new phone piece. But since our plan was still in effect, I could only pick from two phones. Not sure why, but whatever. So there was the cheap one, and the expensive one. The guy there immediately told us the prices, and mum is like "get the cheap one, or you're paying the difference". So I asked to see them, only the cheap one was a piece of crap- even mum could tell, and she's like technologically retared. But the other one was nearly 100 bucks more, though worth it. (well, worth it as much as anything- we all know that inflation is heinous) And it was cooler, and a flip fone, and yeah. Well, we didn't make a decision then, but when I returned homw with the children, padre gave me the nice phone and said "here, you're not getting much for christmas"
My parents spoil me so, though I'm still supposed to cut down on the driving.
Well, anyway, technically it may be only a temp- if we find Norbert, we have to return this one. It needs a name, by the way. And not Norbert the Second, thats stupid and unoriginal. Danny/Shamis (I don't remmber who, my head hurts, okay?) named it like eggbert or dogbert or something, but I'm feeling different vibes from it. Lyla suggested Clarence, which I kind of like. Shout out with suggestions.
speaking of Lyla- she and Julie and Maya came to my hosue today while I was cleaning the war zone with Burger King and fed me. (Lyla has this preoccupation with people being thinner then they were two days ago.) It was a lovely break from cleaning. But now the basement is v. clean. (not completely- I refused to throw out the empty water bottles, and mum yelled at me. But we have a lot now. I think some of the ping pong balls were lost. I need new ones, theres only like 7 left.) and all ready for Wednesday.
Tonight I have a softball game, a soccer game, then a softball game. I am not going to the first softball game, tho, cuz the soccer game is against westlake, and I don't want to be any more sore than I already am for it.
So Elizabeth and I are talking again. Sort of. WEll, we are, but I dunno, we talked at like 1:30 last night, it was odd, she had run into a wall and I was in pain from the battle. Anyway, she told me how she's spent her entire week with Steve. I dunno how she does that- how could you spend everyday wit hthe same person? I'd die. That's probably why I make a horrible, horrible girlfriend, right? Yeah, well, anyway, then she was like "who did you hang out with?" and I was like- caitlin anne, lyla, julie, bodine, steg, trish, shannon, scott, shamis, heather, danny, rob, bodine, liz, and amanda. Not in that order- actually, I don't remember what I did each day. Its been one week of summer, and already the days run together. Its lovely. But yeah. So I most definately beat Elizabeth on the "who did you chill with" tally count. Hahaha, I'm so useless.
Well, anyway. I think I'll be off. More pain tonight, then back to keyboarding come tomorrow! Um, yay? One of these days, I need to take a day off for myself. Tuesday involves Cedar Point, Wednesday involves a war...but with keyboarding, and being steg's cook.....what am I to do?
Oh, well.
Processing information. It is...interesting.

yo ho
yo ho
a (sore, tired, happy) pirate's life for
~me