They're not going to laugh at me again

Oh, me. I don't konw what to do with myself these days. I got my AP scores back, and taking into account my scores, it turns out that I'm a sophomore in college. I don't really know how to react to that news. I mean, yes, I find it amusing. But beyond that? I don't know. It seems very strange to me. Like all of a sudden I'm a year older, and the people I'm expecting to be friends with and whatnot aren't really going to be the ones I'm in classes with. I don't know, I'm making no sense. Only in my head do I make sense. And no one seems to know what's going on in there.

I feel strange I suppose. It's a juncture in life, right? Right between high school and college- it's wierd... You don't belong anywhere. Of course I never really feel like I belong. Sure, I have illusions at time, but in reality I don't belong anywhere with anyone. It's my own fault, I know that. There's something about me that makes me remove myself from others. Not completely. Just enough so that I cannot make a proper human connection or something. I guess I'm a solitary being, right? Yeah, let's go with that.

I don't know. I never know. I'm just out of it as usual I guess. I have a problem. I just wish I knew what it is.

Oh well. Orientation is tomorrow. I cannot wait. Another junction in life. Another chance to start over that probably won't work out for me.

Prancing Nugat in the Meadow

That Snickers commercial makes me laugh.

Today I noted that I really like those coffee delight creamers. My two favourite flavours? Amaretto and Irish Cream. Could I possibly be more alcoholic? My mom sort of rolled her eyes when I pointed it out to her. It's not that I like them BECAUSE they are liquor though- I like them because they taste the bestest. Coincidence. Let's go with that.

Last night was the delightful Reel Big Fish concert. It was delightfully fun and amusing. We all met together at Saber's apartment, which is awesome, and then walked together to the concierto. Reel big Fish played for about an hour and a half. It was soo spectacular. Ed, Skoch, and I were the only ones awesome enough to stand on the floor- but it was so worth the amount of sweat I had to endure. Which, by the way, was a lot. My personal space was violated excessively. But that's okay, we all make sacrifices for music.

Now I'm watching Planet of the Apes, the new version. I've seen it before, but I forgot how creepy it is when the ape lasy falls in love with Mark Wahlberg. It's gross, really.

Well let's see, what else is going on? Not really a whole lot. Orientation is in three days!! I simply cannot wait, I hear such great things about it, I'm vastly excited. Oh, the future is so near.

Okay I'm done. It's nearly World Cup time, and I have to go to Bodine's and Shannon's still.