Why am I so goddamn ugly?
Its kinda mean, u know, when you try to look nice for once in your life, and kinda dress up and put on makeup and then guys call you mannish.
Why are all guys pig-headed and superficial? Is it only the ones I know? Or is it all of them?
And why the hell am I mannish?
Maybe, maybe sometimes, even though I try really hard not to, I do care about what others think of me.
I need to stop that.
No one comfort or lie to me. Just tell me how/why I'm ugly and how to fix it.
Fuck this shit.
Friday, November 28, 2003
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
I decided to fill this out, for want of anything better to do:
1. What color are your kitchen plates?
white with a blue and green line about the edge
2. What book are you reading now?
Pride and Prejudice, Harry potter four
3. What's on your mouse pad?
lovely DELL thingy in a circle....we got it with the comp.
4. Favorite board game?
I haven't played one of those in ages.... I used to like Uncle Wiggly, but I'm afraid of Bunnies now... maybe Pictionary...
5. Favorite magazines?
Seventeen, CosmoGirl
6. Favorite smells?
cinnamon, this random purfumes thats like 395713875 years old I have, and new car smell, oh, oh, and winter air
7. Least favorite smell?
cigarettes.............I hope he dies...........grr
8. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
What the hell is that noise? (normally alarm clock, barking dog, or construction)
9. Favorite color?
orange!!!! I like blue, too
10. Least favorite color?
pink.....not a fan, not a fan
11. How many rings before you answer the phone?
well, my cell dosn't really ring, and I dont answer the home fone
12. Future child's name?
what are children?
13. What is most important in life?
making something of yourself
14. Chocolate or vanilla?
erm.....neither
15. Do you like to drive fast?
hehehehe, yes, I MEAN..... no!! never!
16. Do you fall asleep with the tv on?
I just did today and henceforth I'm really hyper now, when I should be sleeping
17. Storms - cool or scary?
coooooooooool- lightning and thunder and wind and rain/snow/..................me gusta!
18. What type was your first car?
princess blue 2003 Camry
19. Favorite alcoholic drink?
erm.......water....on the rox
20. Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
the better question would be: do I eat broccoli? and the answer is: no
21. If you could have any job what would it be?
being a shrink
22. If you could have any color hair, what would it be?
red- to the point of almost being orange....like the color of that girl in From Hell, the prostitute one, the one who doesn't get decapitated....
23. Favorite movie?
Pirates of the Carribean, Ocean's 11, Breakfast at Tiffany's (whoda thunk Id like it?), Gladiator, Back to the Future 1
24. Do you type with your fingers on the right key?
erm...........close enough, but i look
25. What's under your bed?
presents that I am hiding
26. What is your favorite number?
eleven, 11, once
27. Favorite sport to watch?
why watch when you can play?
28. What is your single biggest fear?
bunnies.
29. Favorite cd?
Right now I'm big into my Mad Season- Matchbox 20 CD, but I also am deeply in love with my Linkin park metora cd...
30. Favorite tv shows?
shows? no, no, no....'tis only one..........Early Edition.......
31. Ketchup or mustard?
yuck to both
32. Hamburgers or hot-dogs?
food....I don't eat that anymore.......I get bacteria instead......
33. Favorite soft drink
not allowed, not to mention I hate carbonated beverages- Ill drink sprite if there's nothing else, tho
34. Best place you have ever been?
um, Arizona?
35. What screen saver is on your computer right now?
SpongeBob!!! Oh, my god..........its so old......I'm trying to replace it with some choice pictured from the People's "Sexiest men" edition, which I stole from my neighbor
36. What is your favorite animal?
um.................not bunnies
37. What do you want to be when you grow up?
a shrink
38. Car you drive now?
well, in one month and one day I can get my licence, but we have to schedule the test soon.....
yeah, I guess thats my life in a nutshell, eh?
1. What color are your kitchen plates?
white with a blue and green line about the edge
2. What book are you reading now?
Pride and Prejudice, Harry potter four
3. What's on your mouse pad?
lovely DELL thingy in a circle....we got it with the comp.
4. Favorite board game?
I haven't played one of those in ages.... I used to like Uncle Wiggly, but I'm afraid of Bunnies now... maybe Pictionary...
5. Favorite magazines?
Seventeen, CosmoGirl
6. Favorite smells?
cinnamon, this random purfumes thats like 395713875 years old I have, and new car smell, oh, oh, and winter air
7. Least favorite smell?
cigarettes.............I hope he dies...........grr
8. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
What the hell is that noise? (normally alarm clock, barking dog, or construction)
9. Favorite color?
orange!!!! I like blue, too
10. Least favorite color?
pink.....not a fan, not a fan
11. How many rings before you answer the phone?
well, my cell dosn't really ring, and I dont answer the home fone
12. Future child's name?
what are children?
13. What is most important in life?
making something of yourself
14. Chocolate or vanilla?
erm.....neither
15. Do you like to drive fast?
hehehehe, yes, I MEAN..... no!! never!
16. Do you fall asleep with the tv on?
I just did today and henceforth I'm really hyper now, when I should be sleeping
17. Storms - cool or scary?
coooooooooool- lightning and thunder and wind and rain/snow/..................me gusta!
18. What type was your first car?
princess blue 2003 Camry
19. Favorite alcoholic drink?
erm.......water....on the rox
20. Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
the better question would be: do I eat broccoli? and the answer is: no
21. If you could have any job what would it be?
being a shrink
22. If you could have any color hair, what would it be?
red- to the point of almost being orange....like the color of that girl in From Hell, the prostitute one, the one who doesn't get decapitated....
23. Favorite movie?
Pirates of the Carribean, Ocean's 11, Breakfast at Tiffany's (whoda thunk Id like it?), Gladiator, Back to the Future 1
24. Do you type with your fingers on the right key?
erm...........close enough, but i look
25. What's under your bed?
presents that I am hiding
26. What is your favorite number?
eleven, 11, once
27. Favorite sport to watch?
why watch when you can play?
28. What is your single biggest fear?
bunnies.
29. Favorite cd?
Right now I'm big into my Mad Season- Matchbox 20 CD, but I also am deeply in love with my Linkin park metora cd...
30. Favorite tv shows?
shows? no, no, no....'tis only one..........Early Edition.......
31. Ketchup or mustard?
yuck to both
32. Hamburgers or hot-dogs?
food....I don't eat that anymore.......I get bacteria instead......
33. Favorite soft drink
not allowed, not to mention I hate carbonated beverages- Ill drink sprite if there's nothing else, tho
34. Best place you have ever been?
um, Arizona?
35. What screen saver is on your computer right now?
SpongeBob!!! Oh, my god..........its so old......I'm trying to replace it with some choice pictured from the People's "Sexiest men" edition, which I stole from my neighbor
36. What is your favorite animal?
um.................not bunnies
37. What do you want to be when you grow up?
a shrink
38. Car you drive now?
well, in one month and one day I can get my licence, but we have to schedule the test soon.....
yeah, I guess thats my life in a nutshell, eh?
Monday, November 24, 2003
Your dominant element is earth. Even if you sometimes pretend otherwise, do you kind of like hanging out with your folks or siblings? The ancient Yin-Yang scholars saw earth types as pretty family-oriented. Also, they are generally trusted by their friends and, being very reliable and responsible, rarely disappoint them. Earth people like to invite friends over for low-key activities like watching movies or just to hang out.
Do you have a fairly stable temper? It's not easy getting Earth types worked up.
NOTE: Earth types look huggable. They tend to have have full cheeks and a generous mouth.
Do you tend to think one thing over and over again, without ever making a decision? Or do you feel nervous at times? If so, your lack of metal may be the cause. Here are some things the ancient Yin-Yang scholars suggested to lift up your metal level.
hmmmmmmmm, sounds like me
except the huggable part.
::personal space::
arggg
Do you have a fairly stable temper? It's not easy getting Earth types worked up.
NOTE: Earth types look huggable. They tend to have have full cheeks and a generous mouth.
Do you tend to think one thing over and over again, without ever making a decision? Or do you feel nervous at times? If so, your lack of metal may be the cause. Here are some things the ancient Yin-Yang scholars suggested to lift up your metal level.
hmmmmmmmm, sounds like me
except the huggable part.
::personal space::
arggg