Oh man. OH man, oh man oh man. Its 5:30 in the morning. I'm alone right now, utterly alone. My roommate went home for the weekend. My suitemetes (those who are here) are sleeping, the lucky bitches. I have no phone. No one is online. And I feel so utterly alone.
I'm homesick right now, for the first time in this whole college stint. It's not even homesick. It's friendsick, a term I discussed with katiespi. I just want to be with the poeple I really know and love right now, the ones I'm not going to see in forever. The nice thing about being alone is no one can see or hear me cry (Clarissa is out cold I think) but the bad thing is I really need to talk to someone, someone who really knows me. I haven't got any way to talk to them though. I wish I could just hop in the ol' Camry and see people. Oh, sweet Huebert, how are you? How is Cleveland? Westlake? Lakewood? Bay Villiage? How's Shannon in new york or caitlin in chicago or skoch in st. louis or ricky and ed at hiram? How is anyone?
Don't ahve late night converstaions with the people you love and miss the most. They make you super depressed. I wish I had some freaking zoloft.
I can't even see right now. I took out my contacts. So if no on elsecan read this, I'm sorry.
I loved this summer. There's only one thing I cwould change.
I love it here. But there's only one person I would bring back.
Dammit I don't even know what to think anymore.
1 comment:
i just love you.
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