I think somebody loved me once

Reel Big Fish makes everyone happy. Even me.

But really, I'm not too upset. I'm doing alright. I only have four more days here. And I finished off what I needed to today (besides shopping, but that's another story) and so I feel like I'm leaving without bringing any ghosts to follow me.

Someone just remind me that once I get into college I have to stop making the mistake of inaction. Just Do It, right? God I'm so fucking retarded. I think that upsets me the most- how goddamn stupid I was. Why didn't I ever listen to Lyla? Too late now. Sorry Loulou.

But I'm at peace. It just rained. I love rain. Rain and thunder and lightning. It was all very clensing.

And I have sound on the laptop, which just cheers me up immensely! I have to pack and still buy a few things, but more or less, I'm all set to go to Columbus, a place which, to me, holds new promise and hope. Corny, I know, but true. I am going to make an honest effort to change- not to be a different person, but to make the right choice, to be honest.

Ultimately I leave behind no regrets, not really. There's some things I should have done. There are some things that could have gone better. But really, all in all, things are okay now. Not perfect, and I feel like they are... different. But I'm okay. I'm okay.