Oh, me. I don't konw what to do with myself these days. I got my AP scores back, and taking into account my scores, it turns out that I'm a sophomore in college. I don't really know how to react to that news. I mean, yes, I find it amusing. But beyond that? I don't know. It seems very strange to me. Like all of a sudden I'm a year older, and the people I'm expecting to be friends with and whatnot aren't really going to be the ones I'm in classes with. I don't know, I'm making no sense. Only in my head do I make sense. And no one seems to know what's going on in there.
I feel strange I suppose. It's a juncture in life, right? Right between high school and college- it's wierd... You don't belong anywhere. Of course I never really feel like I belong. Sure, I have illusions at time, but in reality I don't belong anywhere with anyone. It's my own fault, I know that. There's something about me that makes me remove myself from others. Not completely. Just enough so that I cannot make a proper human connection or something. I guess I'm a solitary being, right? Yeah, let's go with that.
I don't know. I never know. I'm just out of it as usual I guess. I have a problem. I just wish I knew what it is.
Oh well. Orientation is tomorrow. I cannot wait. Another junction in life. Another chance to start over that probably won't work out for me.
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