It's true though. As Sean so wisely told me, all that really happens is a number changes. How do we really know the begining and end point of the earth's rotation- the point where it has gone in one full circle. We can't be sure, scientists don't know these things. I could celebrate the Earth spinning right now. Or now. Or whenever I want. Today is nothing but a number.
I am very full of teen angst right now, in case you haven't noticed. It's that whole idea of knowing what you want out of life. Yeah, that factor is majorly lacking. However, I know of one thing that I want to see resolved, and it's all that's keeping me going right now. Smeriously, right now I'm living my life for other people because there's nothing worth living for myself.
Today was such a shitty day. I don't mean event-wise. I mean weather-wise. It's gross out there. It's raining on and off, there isn't even a hint of snow anywhere, not even in huge piles at the mall, everything is dripping wet, and it feels like that March thaw we always get in March. What a dumb statement, I'm leaving it, though. But really, it's like that thaw, where everythign is dripping and shedding its winter skin, giving you the illusion that all will soon be bright and sunny, but you know that just when you're bracing yourself for sunscreen and beach towels, the sky will green over, a foot or so of snow will deposit upon us, and depression will sink in again. Though truthfully, this weather depresses me more than snow ever could. I love snow. Long time.
I'm such a bad person. Some times I can't stand my own friends. Usually specifial ones, though. No wonder I feel so alone. I don't want to be with half the people who could hang out right now.
Ah, well. I still love Elise, my darling lovely soul sistah.
On the bright side, I'm getting away from this hell... I mean, Ohio... in three days.
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