Stef's thoughts on life in general...

Note: If you don't like it, tough. Having epiphanies of life while in the shower has made me feel the need to tell people how I feel. That and a bad case of PMS. This blog is, as Caitlin long ago put it so eloquently, "my odd self outpoured to you all". (yes, it was in reference to her blog, but still) If you don't like my odd self, then why are you reading this? The blog is where I put how I feel..if I feel depressed, then dammit, I am going to talk about it. And since I am pretty much only happy when Im out of my house, then I can't be very non-depressed while writing in this blog, eh? Yeah. This is my little corner of the world wide web where I can try to sort out the ingredients of my mind. And if you can't take the heat, then get the hell out of this Kitchen

Napoleon
So, he wanted to rule the world. Thes so over-rated. Why bother? You just have to sit there and listen to all the little people complain about their problems. Napeleon seems to me a psycho who wanted to control Europe because he was insecure about his small penis. Yes, this discussion has come up several times in history class.

Getting ahead in life
I'm begining to think life isn't about what you know, or even who you know. Its about when you know it. Sure, you can know all you want about the Industrial Revolution (sorry guys, I just did a bunch of history homework), but if you don;t learn it until after the test, what good is that going to do? And sure, you can meet guys who are hot and stuff, but if you meet them after sophomore dance, then there is little purpose. Well, in some cases. Knowing something too soon can ruin a lot, too. If you are not supposed to know about a surprise or secret or whatever until it comes into play, already knowing it can give you a buttload of problems. People don't like a know-it-all. But knowing it too late can cause problems to, like when you ask someone about their dog, and they are like "dude, it died a week ago" and you're just like "oh, shit." The challenge in like is not learning everything or meeting everyone....its timing it all to your advantage.

School
School teaches us many things. Sure there's all those fun classes, and of course the social interactions, but its those things like time management that are the toughest. I, for one, suck at it. And it is a key. Time, time, time, everything is about time these days.

Time and its management
Time management is not about getting everything done beforehand and leaving yourself with free time. It involves being informed. You have to know what actually needs to be completed. there's no point in doing homework that isn't going to be collected. If you maybe need to do it just to learn how its done, then it can go last on the list. Its also about knowing how to multi-task. Doing seven or eight things at once is an important step in one's time-management growth. Let's all face the truth...work doesn't really come before play on our priority task. Its only when there's nothing to play that we work. Come on, we all need more fun in our lives. Proper time management skills can improve work and play. Yes. Its true.
There's this theory that time is getting faster and faster, and the earth is slowly speeding towards (oo, can you smell the oxymoron?) its impending doom. Well, in that case, we have less and less time. So why does everyone have more and more to do? I think there can probably be a math equation to represent this. I just don't know what it is. But I do know it probably has a degree of one, or something like that.

Friends
These things are obviously important. Its finding the right ones that is hard. It depends a lot on a person's pickyness. Want a popular friend? One with the same values? Same interests? Someone who is just available when you need them? Someone to use for mney/P.I.M.P. purposes? I think it is most advantageous to a person if they decide what they want in a friend, then make a bunch of different ones to fill each of the one or two requirements. There is no point in finding one who meets them all....no one's perfect.

Perfection
Let's face it. Perfection would be frikin boring. If you never do anything wrong then a) you can't laugh at your mistakes and b)no one else can laugh at your mistakes. People who do stupid stuff (not like drugs stupid, like falling over their own two feet stupid) are the most entertaining, aren't they? I can bear witness as a living example of this.

Opposite gender (males)
I like them. They are pretty. hehe. But they lead to problems among friends, enemies, and people you don't even know. I think we should all really tread carefully around this species. People don't think about what they are doing when it comes to boys, and look where it gets them- in a mess. And, aoky, I think there's thinking too much, too, which is probably a major problem of mine. I guess it falls somewhere between following your heart (not your hormones) and listening to reason. Which often conflict with eachother. Maybe this is why I have problems...I'm too logical for my own good.

Jealousy
I hate it! omg, I do. I am like, one of the most jealous people ever. I hate, hate, hate it when people get/have what I want. I admit it. But I think its natural, too. I mean, its what drives everyone into striving to be better. Maybe a better person, maybe a richer one, whatever. The point is that human existance would be nothing like what it is today without it. Which is both a good and a bad thing. So, yeah, maybe I'm jealous, but at least it motivates me. And lets face it, thats not easy to do these days.

Depression
Okay, as Lyla almost gave me the speech on yesterday, everyone gets depressed sometimes. Which is why I totally give mad props to those who can spot the difference between teenage hormones and actual depression. (Which I hope to be one day) And, okay, maybe we don;t like to hear about other people being sad, and maybe people should go around blabbing about all their problems, but first of all ,talking about them really does help. Thats why I like to complain on my blog. If you don't want to read it, fine. I don't really care if anyone knows about my problems or cares, its just nice to have a place to store them all. And if everyone gets depressed sometimes, then for god sake, those of you out there who condone me, I know you get depressed, too, and yeah maybe you dont talk about it in your blog, but hell, if you don;t want to know, don;t read it. Its simple, not rocket science.

Liz's Bird
Liz's bird is the devil. Do not talk to it, it will try to kill you. The only person in the owrld it likes is Liz. Stay Away.

Bunnies
Hate. Them.

Truth, Lies, and the hypocrites in between
Okay, well, first of all, I would have to say that truth is my favorite virtue. I never said the one I was most endowed with, just my favorite. (Face it: I ain't endowed with any virtues) I think if everyone told the truth a little more, life would be easier. Which may not be a good thing, but I don't really care. I'm not saying so much in as talling the truth, but more like, being honest with yourself and others.If someone asks if something's wrong ,and there is but you say no, where in the hell is that going to get you? Maybe bitching them out isn't the best way out, either, but at least go "I dont want to talk about it". I do admit I am bluntly honest sometimes. Okay, a lot. Luckily, I do not easily regret the things I say and do, or that would be a bad thing.
the other thing is hypocrites. Let's face it: the whole world is a hypocrite. And, even as I write this list of beliefs and stuff, I know I am not always going to stick by them or live up to them one hundred percent. But at least I can admit to myself that I am or will be wrong, and knwo that I should stop. Even if I dont, the knowledge is there. The worst thing is being a hypocrite about being a hypocrite. Saying "No I'm not a hypocrite" is an oxymoron. So don't bother.

Crest Whitestrips
Dude, these things are cool, I jsut took off some like five minutes ago. They leave this cool filmy stuff on your teeth, and kind of a minty taste in your mouth. Not to mention, they make your pearly whites pearly again. Tres bien.

People
People suck. I suck, you suck, everyone sucks. Why, no one will ever know. We can only have ideas. No one has the same ideas though, thats half the problem. If they would just realize that we are stubborn, and no one is ever going to agree with everyone, then maybe we'd be okay. Not good, just...better....

Religion
I myself don't really understend the point of organized religion. Like I said, no one has the same beliefs as everyone else. So, why not jsut everyone practice what they believe? Why do we all have to be in groups?

Myself
I am strange, odd, and I love it. Okay, sometimes I hate myself, and I of all people can tell you that I am a bitch, a hypocrite, immoral (well, not completely), athiest, and pro-abortion. I don't understand myself. This very blog entry is probably rather contradicting, and I know it. I don't think anyone understands themself, though. That thought gives me minute comfort.


Okay, well, I am starting to get tired, and I have to pack and clean before science olympiad. And its like a quarter to one. Great.

yo ho
yo ho
a pirate's life for
~me