So, today I was thinking- and isn't it interesting that "it sucks" and "it blows" mean the same thing?

Ghhhhhaaaaa! I am really, really depressed. I'm feeling sick, now, probably b/c I am depressed. I am unmotivated, lazy, incompetient, and above all, I need Zoloft. Or maybe I should seriously think about seeing a shrink. I have a friend who might know of one to see....
But see, the thing is, the problem with seeing a shrink is that there's nothing wrong with me, I'm just in a bad, bad mood. And It's my own fault- its partly how I feel about myself (which is bad) and partly just how life is right now (which is also bad, but not that bad- really, its just extremely boring) And I want to feel good about myself, but thanks to outside forces, I feel like I never will b/c:
a) I am not anorexicaly skinny
b) I do not have like a beautiful face or anything
c) I do not have a boyfriend, or even guys who r interested in me
d) I am soooooooooo failing out of school (okay, not really, but I am losing interest in it)
e) I never have the right thing to say, and ofter make a fool of myself

Okay, I know they are vain, stupid reasons, and they shouldn't matter to me, but right now they do. And like a week ago, they didn't. And now they do, a lot, and it is really depressing me. It is a little better to write about it I guess, but not that much so...
I guess I'll go.

yo ho
yo ho
whatever